My body hates me!

147.8 today?!? WTF?!? I weight more than a did a month ago and I've stuck to my diet?!? I stayed within my calories and carbs. How the hell did I gain 4 pounds in one day?!? See? I told you my body hates me!

I actually didn't cheat yesterday! That's what sucks. I thought about cheating, but stayed in my calorie and carb limits. All I can think is too much wine. I counted it, but it could have dehydrated me and the nutritionist (well, she used to be one) who drives me to church says when that happens my body will hold onto more water. So I'm trying to drink more (plain water) today.

poem: The Journey Home

Found this and wanted to share.

date unknown, probably written when I was homeless in Berkeley

Untitled

The journey home is long and hard,
The journey home to your front yard.
The journey home through hopes and dreams,
The journey home through others' schemes.
The journey home though fate resists,
The journey home through rains and mists.
I must go now, I can't stay here,
It's far too far, but far too near.
It's far too near to safe and dry,
It's far too near from ground to sky.

The Chronicles of Narnia

Here's a web site about The Chronicles of Narnia from Moviefone, and of course, I must also have a link to the official web site. Check out the trailers!

New notebook!

Started a new notebook at church last week. I had bought it as a prayer journal, but it wasn't being used, so I decided to use it for sermon notes. Here's the Amazon listing for it: I Hope You Dance Journal. My last notebook was a 3 subject notebook from the grocery store's stationary aisle. At least it had pockets - handy at Conference where there are always handouts.

It's a blank journal, but has the words to the song I Hope You Dance inside the front cover (I love that song!). It also has a place to put your own picture in the window on the cover. I put in a picture from my trip to Conference in 2004.

If you click on the picture of the book in the link and go a few pages in you will see the words to the song. It is so beautiful. I hope I dance.

I put the CD on my Wish List. :)

What Number Are You?

I am the number 2 I am friendly _

what number are you?

this quiz by orsa

What Age Do You Act?

You Are 30 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

The funny thing is...I'm 34 - so close. I do look about 30 though. :)

Official first day of winter!

We got our first "good rain" of the season today, so to me, it's the first day of winter. It was raining when I got up, but started and stopped after that, mostly stopped. I managed to avoid it when I went to the gym and then to work. What a gray depressing day it's been!

Victoria the antichrist

Xena thinks I am the antichrist mom from hell and only lets me live because I feed her.

Other humans are better but I'm evil because I take her to the vet and put Advantage (or Frontline) on her and pick her up and kiss her and pet her and do other horribly abusive things.

I had to give her a dose of Frontline this weekend. I pinned her down and scruffed her to hold her still and started to apply it. She started crying...loudly. God...from the noise she made you'd think I was killing her. Abby was even harder and I think a good part of the Frontline hit the wall rather than her. What is it with cats and flea medicine that makes them think you're going to kill them?

The real antichrist can be found using this quiz.

Abby's collar

It's still on and still way too tight (and I swear getting tighter), but she's managed to lose the bottom half of her nametag tube. It's a little metal tube that you put your name and phone number in, screw it closed, and attach it to the collar. Xena doesn't have a problem keeping hers on, but Abby's now lost the bottom half of hers that had the paper in it. I have no way to reunite the two halves, so now she's doomed to wearing half the tube. She still has the ugly yellow plastic tag with her microchip number on it and that just duplicates the info. in the tube, so she's still tagged.

She's still scratching at the collar, but she'll get used to it eventually. It will just take her longer because it's so tight and she's never worn one before.

The "tube tag" mine wear is similar to this, though this one is two tone and mine are just plain gold-colored metal.

Bad girl

I was a BAD girl over the weekend. Back on plan today, but damn I have got to stop doing this to myself. :( I fell as far off the wagon as I could without going on an actual binge. Having only low carb foods around the house help in that way. Even the microwave popcorn is the lowest carb of all the ones in the store.

After hitting a new low on Friday I am now all bloated and feel sick and generally wish I were in bed asleep, out of my misery, instead of at work trying to find things to settle my tummy.

Really screwed up my diet right after hitting a new low on Friday (142.8). That blows my theory about only eating bad after a bad weigh-in.

I did run the stairs on Saturday evening. From 5:30 until 8 I'd get up and run the stairs every time there was a commercial break (3 flights down to the front entrance of my building, and 3 flights back up). It did no good. My eating was too horrible to be offset by anything.

I feel bloated and icky today. Bloated from the popcorn and Kahlua and other high carb and calorie stuff. Icky from one too many glasses of wine. I think I will skip my nightly glass tonight. I don't feel like it.

The good news is I'm not terribly hungry today. After two days of stuffing my face (albeit with low carb goodies), I don't have much of an appetite. I feel sick to my tummy and don't want to eat much. I think I want another diet soda, though.

Wish I had a diet 7-Up right now. 7-Up is good for upset tummies. (When I got sick to my tummy on the cruise in May my sister got me some kind of a drink with 7-Up in it. It didn't drink the whole thing because I knew it was sugary 7-Up, but I did sip at it. I would even drink sugar right then if it would help me feel better!)

No exercise today. It's a 12 hour workday for me. I was up at 8 this morning. :-p Way too early for a swing shift person like myself.

142.4!

New low today! 142.4! Woohoo! I know it won't hold, but I tapped it at least. I just gotta keep at this and I might make it. I just need to stay very focused until Dec. 31.

More Amazon reviews!

Spent quite a bit on time on Amazon.com today writing more reviews. Check out my new ones, plus an old one updated. :)

Breast Milk Saves Vet

A real-life supermom used a bottle of breast milk to douse an amputee yesterday after his wheelchair was set ablaze by punks on a Staten Island bus, cops said.

Full story here.

How dodgy are you?

Upstanding

How refreshing that there are still people around like you, who respect society and the law. Your Grandparents would be proud. You have a good knowledge of the law and a good public spirit, or you have rarely left the house… Either way - keep it up old fruit!

Based on your answers, we have calculated the maximum penalty for your crimes*:

Years in prison: 7 Potential fine: £2000

*Please note this is just a fun quiz so don't be alarmed by your score! The maximum penalty has been taken for each crime and no consideration for scale of crime committed.

http://www.thesite.org/flash/dodgy.html

Happy Anniversary, Sweetheart

Today marks three years since I walked into the backyard at my old house and found an orange tabby momcat and six kittens. That was the day you came into my life. Happy anniversary, Abby. I love you.

Tonight Abby and Xena will get toony fish for dinner. :)

15th Anniversary of 1989 quake

How could I end the day without mentioning that the earth shook for 15 seconds 15 years ago. :)

San Francisco Museum - '89 quake

For anyone who cares, I lived in San Mateo County at the time and felt the quake quite strongly!

Well, that sucks...

Looks like the photocopies of the book on Amazon are no longer available. It's been replaced by somebody else selling one used copy of the book in "acceptable" condition for $175! Yike!

Here's what the page looks like now:
The Exorcism of Anneliese Michel

Daylight Saving Time change

Daylight Saving Time will start earlier and end later starting in 2007. "DST will begin on the second Sunday of March, and end the first Sunday of November."

http://webexhibits.org/daylightsaving/b.html

Atkins: Have we had our fill?

I know this is kind of late, but I just "stumbled" across it today.

News that Atkins Nutritionals is seeking bankruptcy-court protection has some nutrition experts sounding the death knell for the low-carb, meat-lovers' diet — the hottest weight-loss craze of the past decade.

Full article here (USA Today).

I intend to keep eating this way because it has improved my blood cholesterol and I feel better. And of course I've lost 60 pounds. :)

Working on my Saturday

So here it is my Saturday (most people's Friday) and I'm spending it at work. Davina will be here around 5:30 and I can go home then. *sigh* But I really need the money so I can't complain. Today is day one of the new pay period, so today isn't actually overtime. It'll be overtime next Thursday when I come in for the 6th day in a week.

There is other overtime next week, too. Monday will be a 12 hour day. Just gotta rest up this Sabbath to get me through the next week. I'll need it!