Sunday, October 15, 2006

McDonald's cares about you

7 days cheat freeCalories eaten Friday: 1574
Calories burned: 2030
Calorie deficit/overage: -421
Calories burned in exercise: 201
Fat: 75g (45%)
Net carbs: 50g (14%)
Protein: 106g (29%)

Went walking around the lake Friday (took 1 hour), did nothing Saturday, and then went back to the gym today. I did 45 minutes of weights, 25 on the treadclimber, and only 5 minutes walking on the treadmill because I ran out of time. It's the first time in over a week that I've done weight training. Since I did weights today, tomorrow will just be straight cardio. Hopefully I can get a few more steps. My step count at the gym today was pretty abysmal because I got there so late and still spent the same amount of time on weight training.

One week ago today I cheated BIG and have been cheat free for 7 days now. Hopefully being good the next couple of days will result in a good weigh-in Tuesday.

Speaking of which, I tore the following from my McDonald's tray liner that day. On the back of the liner where the nutritional information is listed is this note:

Jump-start your fitness plan.
A note from Bob Greene..."What's better than making a commitment to improve your health? Getting you whole family involved! When you include more physical activity into your family's life, not only are you improving everyone's health and teaching good habits, you have fun and spend quality time together.


So far, so good, right? This is stuff everyone can get behind. But he continues:

McDonald's truly cares about you and your well-being. That's why I'm proud to be involved with them.

--Bob Greene, Oprah's Personal Trainer and Exercise Physiologist


Say what? McDonald's cares about me and my well-being? Let's have a show of hands. How many people believe that? Hmmm...seems no one does. Seriously...a McGriddle sandwich will run you about 450 calories, with the majority from fat and simple carbs. How can that be caring for my health? It's a heart attack waiting to happen. It's the unhealthy combination of high carbs and high fat.

I cheat at McDonald's because it tastes great precisely because it's so totally unhealthy. Cheating isn't supposed to be healthy. McDonald's will care about my well-being when hell freezes over. They just want me to keep spending my money there so they can rake in the dough. Their crap tastes great, but don't insult my intelligence by telling me they care about me, Mr. Greene. Grrr...

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Saturday, October 14, 2006

Friday, October 13, 2006

Gratuitous cat pictures

5 days cheat freeWeight: 143.6
Calories eaten yesterday: 1594
Calories burned: 1963
Calorie deficit/overage: -369
Calories burned in exercise: 107
Fat: 63g (37%)
Net carbs: 66g (17%)
Protein: 101g (27%)

I'm happy about the weight. I expected more after so many cheats in the last week.

I have some gratuitous cat pictures to share with you today. I've gotten behind. Click any picture to enlarge it in a new window.

Xena in carrier
Xena in her cat carrier. Taken with my cell phone camera.

Xena & bug
Xena investigates a bug

Xena sleeps on mommy's arm
Xena sleeps on my arm. Taken with my cell phone camera.

Xena cleans Abby
Xena cleans Abby

While I'm away, the cat will play...
Xena pulled over the bins while I was at work. I came home to this mess.

Xena
Xena shows her tummy spots

Xena in my large duffel bag - Abby in background
Xena in my large duffel bag (the one I use for groceries); Abby in the background

Finally, because my Mom does not read here, I wanted to show a picture of the shirt I designed for Mom and Bill as Christmas presents. They said April got them one with Bogie's picture, and they would like one with my cats. I found a place online that let's you design a shirt using your own pictures, and allows you to order as few as one.

the shirt I designed for my Mom and her husband
The shirt I designed for Mom and Bill for Christmas. They have one from April with her dog, so they wanted one with my cats.

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Thursday, October 12, 2006

Busy, busy, busy...

4 days cheat freeCalories eaten yesterday: 1519
Calories burned: 1940
Calorie deficit/overage: -421
Calories burned in exercise: 80
Fat: 75g (45%)
Net carbs: 50g (14%)
Protein: 106g (29%)

Busy day. Changed the sheets on my bed so I can wash the old ones tonight, then went grocery shopping and cooked and tried to figure out how to log the meat. Began to bake it, but had to take it out and leave for work. Found, edited, and uploaded some Xena and Abby pictures to Flickr - easy download to my work computer that way. Mom wants a t-shirt with the cats' pictures on it for Christmas. I found a place online where I can do this and buy only one shirt, but it is hecka work...not fun at all.

Walked the last 1.5 miles to work, as I often do. Stopped at WalMart on the way and bought a top.

Been busy at work, too. I need to talk to Lupe about my dental and find out how much coverage I have left. It look like the second half of the oral surgery will have to wait until next year because of stupid company rules regarding coverage. This sucks because I was told not to get my teeth whitened (my Christmas present from Mom and Bill since there is no coverage for cosmetic procedures) until the surgery is done! Argh! And God forbid Lupe being in her office. I keep running downstairs and checking.

And no one from KFTL bothered to notify either Dave or I that Open Forum is recorded tonight and tomorrow. I had to do the 5:30 switch manually, and after two bounced text messages to Dave, I finally got ahold of him and he fixed it so it will switch automatically.

Today was payday so I wrote some checks and paid some bills online. Tried to call my chiropractor to see if there were slots open tomorrow for an adjustment and massage, but they were closed for the day.

Now I have to plan my menus for next week and plug them into FitDay.

Tonight I will do the laundry and then cook some meat while that's going. Hopefully I can also pack my lunches for next week.

Whew! Like I said...I'm busy today! And not a happy camper at all.

Tomorrow I hope to walk around the lake for exercise.

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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Dentist Day, take 5

3 days cheat freeCalories eaten yesterday: 1605
Calories burned: 1940
Calorie deficit/overage: -335
Calories burned in exercise: 80
Fat: 79g (46%)
Net carbs: 54g (14%)
Protein: 111g (29%)

Today I had the periodontal consultation. They explained I needed oral surgery - not just another deep cleaning, but also clipping back the gums to enable me to brush better. They gave me a regular toothbrush and two special brushes and showed me the proper way to use them all.

I accented to the surgery. Total cost: $1800. It looks like Dad will give me the money and accept only the $1400 back that will be the 80% my employer will cover. Dad initially freaked over the cost and I explained that this was a low income dentist and I wasn't going to get a better price anywhere else. They wanted to do the first part of the surgery today and I explained that I would love to, but I had to get to work. The periodontist will be back in two weeks and I am arranging for that day off for the surgery. It's the day of the fire extinguisher training, so I will have to miss that. They will only do half the mouth at a time so it will require two appointments. Oral surgery. Oh fun. (NOT!)

He used the probe to test the pocket depth of my teeth. This goes on a scale of 1-whatever, with 1 being the best. I had a few places that were 1s, and last week I was told I had a few 9s. This guy said I had some 10s!

He said I'm a big girl (size-wise) and that means my teeth are big so the damage is less than it could be and most of my teeth are still fairly firm in the bone, even if there is less bone.

It's good that I had a ton of work done as a child. Before I had braces I had to have eight teeth pulled in two separate operations (including my wisdom teeth). Without the extractions and the braces I'd be much worse off now and need a lot more work.

He said I have periodontal disease. Like diabetes or heart disease, it cannot be cured, only managed. This is the next step in that management. You know your teeth are bad when, after $700 worth of work, you then have to pony up another $1800! Yikes.

At least the periodontist seems like a nice man with a sense of humor. That should make things a little easier.

I took the train to the Collisium BART station, but I just missed the bus. I decided to walk, which would make me about 15 minutes late since it was a quarter to three and roughly a 30 minute walk. I had planned to walk anyway, so I'm glad I had an excuse to.

My tea tree order came today. I'll start using the stuff right away.

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Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Week 8 Weigh-In (has been cancelled...)

2 days cheat freeCalories eaten yesterday: 1554
Calories burned: 2356
Calorie deficit/overage: -802
Calories burned in exercise: 527
Fat: 70g (43%)
Net carbs: 57g (15%)
Protein: 116g (31%)

Week 1: 147.6
Week 2: 147.6
Week 3: 147.6
Week 4: 146 (-1.6)
Week 5: 145.4 (-0.6)
Week 6: 144.6 (-0.8)
Week 7: 142.6 (-2.0)
Week 8: N/A

Week 8 weigh-in has been cancelled. Due to my binge I know I am up. I know I gained some fat, but I won't know how much until I can lose the water weight.

I scrapped going to the gym today - my legs are way sore and even my shoulders are sore (from the pumping motion of my arms when running). No way could I do a decent workout. So I did my bimonthly mail run into the City, then walked the 1.5 miles to work from the BART station. That I can do at least.

I stopped at WalMart on the way. I swore I saw a shrug there and I wanted to try it on. No luck. Either they don't have it or I saw it at another store. :-p I settled for buying a sporty little cute brown cotton outfit (top and skirt). I was able to get size small! I know WalMart has big sizes. At Old Navy I take an 8; at WalMart I'm a 6. So it shouldn't surprise me that if I take a medium everywhere else, I'd take a small at WalMart. The small top was a little tight (it's a zip down sweatshirt, and I will have to wear it alone), but there was no size medium. I'm always a size bigger on top due to my huge chest. I'll try to get a picture of me wearing it at some point.

I bought a size small/medium belt. I can't believe I can wear something so small! I can go as far as the second hole. Do I rock or what?

I also bought a blanket for my bed because I only have one so if it gets dirty I don't have another to sleep under until the first one is washed. And it was less than $5! I think it will fit, but won't know until I put it on the bed.

Also got Chloraseptic Defense Daily Health Strips. Going to Seattle for Thankgiving is just asking to get sick. So I'll take these and hope for the best. They contain Vitamin C and Zinc.

Having trouble cutting back on calories at all today. I'm so hungry. I hate this stupid medication that makes me hungry all the time. And because I have to cut the L-Carnitine out of my diet for the next week, I can't have my diet mints because they contain it. :-p

Walked over 22,000 steps yesterday - 10.2 miles! Go me!


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Monday, October 09, 2006

5 mile run

1 days cheat freeI am so NOT getting on the scale after yesterday's binge. My cheat free count starts over. The funny thing is that the food didn't taste as good as I'd remembered it. It was good, sure, but not as good as I'd hoped.

I "punished" myself at the gym today by running 5 miles to help burn off the glycogen. The first four miles were as easy as four miles is (LOL!), but the last mile went on forever and was pure torture. How can one mile last longer than the other four combined?!?

As if that wasn't enough, I then walked to work from the train station, another 1.5 miles. It took me longer than usual, though, because I was so tired. I'm now exhausted. Still doing "laps" in the hallways at work, but it's harder than usual.

FitDay says I burned 417 calories in my run, and 95 calories in my walk, though I suspect it might be more because I haven't updated my weight due to all my binging, and a higher weight means more calories burned.

Today's my first day of eating a regular lunch of meat and veggies instead of a shake. I figured out I can still keep my calories within a reasonable range if I don't snack between lunch and "dinner." Dinner being a salad at 10 pm, a serving of lunchmeat and two tablespoons of peanut butter (only one tablespoon today, though) at 9 pm.

Walked over 20,000 steps yesterday (about 9.2 miles)! A new high for me! :) Breaking 20,000 was my goal, just to prove I could. I'm shooting for about the same today. I'll sleep well tonight!


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I found out my pedometer is not calibrated correctly. After my 5 mile run it only registered 4.23 miles, and this includes the 1000+ steps I took before ever getting to the gym. That is not an insignificant difference! I went into the set up feature and tweaked my stride length up one more inch. I really need to work on calibrating it correctly using a walking pace on the treadmill.

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Sunday, October 08, 2006

Zero = fifty-four

First, Friday's totals. I had a mini binge Thursday and then Saturday is my regular semi-cheat day, but Friday was on plan.

Calories eaten Friday: 1551
Calories burned: 1872
Calorie deficit/overage: -321
Calories burned in exercise: 0 (no exercise)
Fat: 66g (40%)
Net carbs: 59g (16%)
Protein: 78g (21%)

The reason I didn't get any exercise is because I stayed home and redid my blue hair color.

Friday was also dentist day, take 4. I went in to have them check the deep cleaning they did two weeks ago. They said it looked a lot better. I pointed out one place on my gums that still bleeds when I brush and they did some quick tartar scaling. They used the probe to test the pocket depth of my teeth. This goes on a scale of 1-whatever, with 1 being the best. I had a few places that were 1s, but I also had a few 7s (!). The dentist said there were a couple places that bled when he probed (better than 2 weeks ago), but that it didn't necessarily mean it was still infected; it could just mean that it was still healing.

tea tree oilI Googled "natural cures for gum disease," and the one thing mentioned over and over was tea tree oil. One site said to put a drop on top of your toothpaste when you brush. I have an appointment with the periodontist this week for a consultation and plan to ask him about anything else I can do to get rid of this gum disease once and for all, as well as what toothpaste he would recommend.

Today I jumped online and bought tea tree oil, tea tree oil mouthwash, and tea tree oil toothpaste from VitaCost (I'm linking more for me than for you).

I also bought more L-Carnitine, against my better judgement. They seemed to have really good prices. Then I came across this page on Carnitine, and the following paragraph might explain why it's not working for me:

Individuals taking L-carnitine as a sports supplement to improve fat metabolism and muscular performance should stop using it at least for one week each month.

It also says to take 1,000-2,000 mg a day, not to exceed 2,000, and to split it into two doses. I will give all these suggestions a try.

I tried to buy more shirataki from Low Carb Connoisseur, but the value pack I usually buy is temporarily unavailable.

bread rice pastaI'm told confession is good for the soul, so now I will tell you why 0 equals 54. Today is 54 days into the low-carb weight loss challenge, and 0 days cheat free, meaning that today is a major cheat.

Yes, I slipped up. I woke up this morning and couldn't face another day on plan. I've been so good for so long; I fell off the wagon. Breakfast found me at McDonald's, then some junk food at Safeway (some for then, some for later - Twinkies, a donut, jalapeno poppers, double chocolate muffins). For a snack I had a small fries at another McDonald's as I walked to work, and a pumpkin muffin and pumpkin Frappuccino at Starbucks. I'm now drinking tons of Diet Pepsi Jazz; I found a 2 liter of Strawberries & Cream - my favorite - at the store.

I did get in an hour 23 minutes of walking and had over 10,000 steps by the time I got to work. I stupidly wore sandals with very thin socks. The balls of my feet rubbed against them the whole way and are now raw and killing me.

I am a true carbohydrate addict. The one thing my body doesn't need is the one thing I crave. Like an alcoholic, I will never be cured. Once you've eaten as much of the forbidden fruit as I have, it holds an allure that will never go away. Lord have mercy.

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Saturday, October 07, 2006

25 Real Reasons to Lose Weight

I cafe press shirts I ordered a couple shirts from Atkins All the Way. One of them has a list of "25 Real Reasons To Lose Weight." It's numbered incorrectly - there's no #21 and two #24s. Anyway, I wanted to share the reasons here (renumbered for ease of reading).

25. To buy clothes in a normal store.
24. To be able to tie your shoes/paint toenails.
23. To be able to sit on a floor and get up gracefully.
22. To wear a bathing suit.
21. To cross your legs or sit Indian style.
20. To fit into a booth at any restaurant.
19. To be able to pick something up off the floor without sweating.
18. To not have to apologize when caught in a narrow aisle.
17. To go dancing, sky diving, bungee jumping...
16. To not have your belly hit the steering wheel.
15. To not be more out of shape than seniors.
14. To be able to put on wedding rings again.
13. Normal waistbands rather than elastic!
12. To look good in a tee shirt!
11. To not be afraid to ask which hairstyle suits your face.
10. To get promotions/hired or close that sale.
9. To successfully flirt!
8. One size fits all and it fits you!
7. To have a lap.
6. To not have the car you are riding in slant in your direction.
5. To be able to get between cars in a parking lot.
4. To not mind getting your picture taken.
3. To wake up each morning feeling energized and ready to go.
2. To not feel lower than low when an innocent child remarks about your size!
1. The most important reason to lose weight...
You're Worth It!
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Remember...nothing tastes as good as being thin feels!

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Friday, October 06, 2006

Fat Acceptance

I took a lot of flak at the low-carb forum for not supporting people in their obesity. I thought the perfect follow-up to that would be to repost Jimmy Moore's article on the subject here. I happen to agree with him and think he said it so well. I'm not sure why the fat acceptance folks are so threatened by those of us who have succeeded. Yet it appears they are.

Enjoy!

Fat Acceptance Is A Ruse To Avoid Weight Loss

Why can't society just accept fat people for who they are? They're human beings too and should not be scorned by others just because they carry around a few extra pounds. When are we going to stop begging people to lose weight when it is quite possible to be healthy at any size?

Have you heard statements like these from some well-meaning people? The "fat acceptance" movement has taken root in this country with groups like the National Association to Advance Fat Acceptance promoting their viewpoint that fat is beautiful and nobody should be forced into losing weight if they don't want to.

I'm sure many of my longtime readers remember how [one] woman got so mad at me over [a] blog post because I dared challenge the premise that being fat is okay. The notion of accepting fat people for who they are sounds pretty good on the surface, doesn't it? If I'm fat, then it's my choice to be this way so LEAVE ME ALONE!

Okay, fine. But as someone who used to weigh over 400 pounds, I not only have a right to speak out, but I would also say that it is my responsibility to share with others that remaining obese is not an option when there are viable ways to shed the pounds even when you think you've tried everything.

Unfortunately, we have people pushing "fat acceptance" like Kim Barto who believe strongly that weight loss is overrated. She is a senior at the University of North Carolina-Asheville just up the road from my hometown of Spartanburg, SC and she recently wrote this op-ed piece for The Citizen-Times about this very sensitive subject of America's obsession with weight loss which Barto describes as "unrealistic" and even "harmful."

Barto attempted to provide evidence to support her theory about American culture hung up on dieting by noting that eating disorders have risen sharply while more and more people express concerns about their weight. She contends that this is leading to higher rates of mental disorders that sometimes leads to suicide attempts and even death.

Morbid thoughts indeed. But what Barto is conveniently forgetting is the fact that TWO OUT OF EVERY THREE AMERICANS IS OVERWEIGHT OR OBESE and the rates keep going up and up! So it stands to reason that weight loss is on our minds as a country because it needs to be. We're FAT!

In Barto's world, though, she doesn't see anything wrong with people remaining fat if that's what makes them feel good.

"A wide variety of body types are normal, depending on one’s bone structure, metabolism and genetics. It is fruitless and misleading to expect everyone to conform to the same weight. Whether you are naturally muscular, chunky, twiggy, curvy or tiny, trying to change your body can be frustrating and even dangerous."

Now wait just a minute, Ms. Barto. What is so "dangerous" about someone trying to lose weight? When I weighed an abysmal 410 pounds at the beginning of 2004, many would say I had put myself in a bad situation, even a potentially "dangerous" one. My health was on the decline with breathing, blood pressure and cholesterol problems among other ailments. I was quite literally a ticking timebomb just waiting to explode.

But then I started livin' la vida low-carb and changed my life forever. Sure, I could have just accepted my fat for what it was and begged people to not judge me for my weight. However, it wasn't about my image, but rather my health. It was better for me to go on the Atkins diet than to remain obese. I honestly believe I may not be here today had I not lost 180 pounds two years ago. Weight loss not only was a desire, but a necessity for me to survive.

It kills me how people like Barto like to bring up the point about how 98 percent of dieters gain back their weight and then some within five years. To that I say SO WHAT?! What the heck does that have to do with the person who needs to lose 50, 100, 200 pounds because their health is in disarray because of their obesity? If diets fail then don't go on a diet. Instead, find a permanent lifestyle change you can do for the rest of your life.

My weight loss is still less than three years old, so I suppose it is possible I have time to regain my weight, too. Should I just throw my hands up in the air and just assume the weight will come back on my body? Is giving up hope for lasting weight loss success the answer? Heck no, it isn't. Weight loss is a journey of choice that YOU and ONLY YOU must make for yourself if it is something you need to do. Fat acceptance is nothing more than a ruse to avoid necessary weight loss. PERIOD!

The problem is that too many people are in denial about their weight problem to begin with. In other words, people HAVE too easily accepted their size and it is now taking a toll on their health. Rising obesity rates is creating financial problems for Medicare because of the extra healthcare costs that are involved with obesity-related diseases. The unintended consequences of fat acceptance is declining health among all age groups.

Lamenting the weight loss profits totaling nearly $50 billion a year, Barto said this is all just so ridiculous and people should stop trying to lose weight while lining the pockets of those who don't care about their health.

"What a paradox, that dieting should be such a lucrative industry in a country with such high obesity rates. Someone is obviously profiting from fat phobia in a big way. Take a nation of insecure people, bombard them with images of impossible beauty standards, and they will greet the latest fad with open wallets. Couldn’t those billions of dollars be better spent? Instead of trying to buy happiness, think of all the good that money could do if diverted to cancer research or stamping out hunger."

Oh please, Ms. Barto. There's no conspiracy to trick people into thinking they are fat to get them to buy weight loss products. Have you looked around lately? There are a LOT of people who are FAT! It literally breaks my heart to be in a public place like a restaurant and see someone whose belly sticks out in front of them at least two feet. My first thought is, "God, I can't believe that's how big I used to be." Then I remember the hard work I put into losing my weight and wish so desperately to help these people get healthier, too.

While everyone is trying to get their piece of the proverbial pie in the diet industry, it is up to the consumer to be smart about what choices they make regarding their own health. They can't rely on a company like Nestle to provide them quality products for a healthy diet. Misleading marketing ads exist out there and people need to educate themselves about what is best for them. [...]

Barto contends that people can be in "good health at any size."

"Too many dieters harm their bodies and psyches by skipping meals, purging and popping pills in the quest for skinniness. We should eat for nutrition and well-being, not solely to lose weight. Amidst all the deprivation and guilt associated with eating, we often forget that fresh, simple food is a joy in itself."

Does carrying around a big pot belly cause harm to our bodies, Ms. Barto? It most definitely does, which is why people need to lose weight. I don't advocate starving yourself, throwing up or taking the latest magic weight loss pill to get there. But a healthy low-carb lifestyle has been proven to be the most nutrient-dense and balanced nutritional approach I have ever come across in my life. There's no deprivation, but rather indulgence to the max on this amazing way of eating.

Concluding her article, Barto said it is time for a "change in mindset."

"Let’s embrace diversity of size and question the source of our insecurities. Find the weight that’s healthy for you, individually, without comparing yourself to the skeletal models on TV. Life is too short to hate your body."

I agree with the point that the warped image of what "normal" is from Hollywood is wrong. But there are ways to deal with your weight problem and get healthy that fall outside the realm of these unrealistic images. Heck, technically I'm still obese despite losing over 180 pounds! But am I worried about that? HA! Yeah right! My body is much better off now in the 220's than it was at 410.

Wouldn't you agree, Ms. Barto? You can e-mail Kim Barto at kdbarto@bulldog.unca.edu.

9-23-06 UPDATE: Well, it looks like the fine pro-fat acceptance folks over at the "Big Fat Blog" didn't take too kindly to this blog post.

Here's an excerpt:

"We must be making waves if people feel this threatened, no? Articles like Ms. Barto's demonstrate that more people are considering just loving their bodies as they are, and getting off the hamster wheel that is the diet industry. And somehow, HAES and fat acceptance are bigger scams than, say, low-carb dieting? Calorie counting? Grapefruit diet? WeightWatchers? Jenny Craig? Slim-Fast? South Beach? NutriSystem? It's sad, really, and it's equally sad that this article came from a supposed news source."

Ahhhhh, you gotta love these people. They feel oh so happy with being overweight that they can't handle it when someone tells it to them straight. I make no apologies for what I wrote because it is my sincere belief that people who over carrying around extra weight need to make a lot more changes in their life besides their diet. But, to each his own. :)

9-27-06 UPDATE: Well, now I've heard straight from the horse's mouth. Kim Barto was kind enough to respond to my concerns about her article today in an e-mail:

Hi Jimmy, thank you for taking the time to write in response to my column. I'm glad that Atkins has given you the motivation to get in shape and change your life for the better. But I must take issue with your assertion that my column deals with "fat acceptance." Obviously, obesity causes health problems--no one disagrees with that. The main point of my article was health, i.e. making the lifestyle choice to get active, eat a balanced diet and find the weight that maximizes your physical and mental well-being. I'm not advocating the total abolition of weight loss here. What is the problem is a nation of young women (and some men) who are taught to believe there is something wrong with their bodies, when in fact they are within the normal parameters of a healthy weight. Believe me, as a college student, this is something I encounter every day. You would not believe how many of my friends and acquaintances obsess about their weight, even if they are naturally a size 6 or 8, skip meals or suffer from eating disorders.

One of my professors took a survey in class one day; he asked all the females to write on a slip of paper whether they considered themselves "fat." Nine out of ten said yes, and this was a class full of active, athletic women. He has done this exercise for several years with the same result. It is truly scary how much these impossible standards of beauty skew people's perceptions. But perhaps you are not aware of the extent to which advertising and runway models affect self-image, since you are not a young female. I was not kidding when I said that these societal messages are warping the minds of girls from elementary school onward. If you don't believe this, I suggest you look up some statistics on pediatric eating disorders. It's a horrifying phenomenon when seven-year-olds make themselves throw up.

I'm flattered that you thought enough of my writing to post it in your blog; however, I think you may have missed my point. From what I've read of your post, we're talking apples and oranges. But thank you again for writing. I do appreciate hearing what my readers have to say.

Best,
Kim Barto


THANK YOU, Kim, for clarifying your comments. I appreciate that you took the time to explain what your motive for writing the column was and for sharing your thoughts on this very important social subject. Take care!

[end article]

If you got through all that, you might also enjoy this well-written piece on fat acceptance by Kevin Beck.

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Thursday, October 05, 2006

Oink!

pigWeight: 143.8
Calories eaten yesterday: 1601
Calories burned: 1942
Calorie deficit/overage: -341
Calories burned in exercise: 89
Fat: 77g (46%)
Net carbs: 66g (17%)
Protein: 105g (28%)

Up another pound today, but that's okay. I knew my two pound loss was a fluke and that the actual amount was much less.

I'm not sure I should call today as Day 51. I am off and binging, but it is at least on low-carb foods and candy. For example, my double cheeseburger was sans the bun and I passed on the fries, and the candy is sugar free. I ate a ton of macadamia nuts. This is NOT a carb binge at least. I'm just so tired of feeling hungry and deprived and I need a free day to get myself ready for healthy eating again. Over the course of the day (spreading it out lessens the side effects of the sugar alcohols) I ate about 3 bags of sugar free candy. Yep, the whole bag three times over! Yes, I am a fat pig and I'll probably gain a ton of weight. I can already tell I'm retaining water.

And in the middle of this, I want double chocolate muffins!

I'm halting the low-calorie experiment. My body is telling me it won't allow me to continue. So I'm going to start eating a real lunch again next week, but still try to keep the calories down.

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Wednesday, October 04, 2006

To All the Carbs I Loved Before

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To All the Carbs I Loved Before

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50 Days Cheat Free!

50 days cheat freeWeight: 142.8
Calories eaten yesterday: 1686
Calories burned: 2079
Calorie deficit/overage: -393
Calories burned in exercise: 250
Fat: 89g (49%)
Net carbs: 47g (11%)
Protein: 121g (30%)

Up today, but only a little bit. Maybe last week's 2 pound loss was for real. (Dare I hope?)
50 days cheat free for me! Yippee!!!

I figured out what I'm craving. It's not carbs I'm craving; it's food. This lower calorie diet has left me hungry and I simply want more food. That's kind of a relief that I'm not craving carbs; I want healthy food. Binging on healthy food does less damage than binging on carbs. :)

When I went grocery shopping I bought a 12 oz. bag of broccoli and baby carrots (12 net carbs and 100 calories for the whole bag) and devoured it when I got to work. Between that and the Dexatrim Max 2-O I'm actually feeling full. :) My carbs will be a bit high today, but as long as I stick to plan one day of slightly higher carbs won't matter. In order to keep the calories down I took out the second sausage I was going to eat.

Going to make the eggplant lasagna for the church potluck this weekend. Bought the stuff for that, and lots of salad and veggies. I've been buying hardly any meat because of using the shakes for lunch and that was when I ate most of my meat for the day.

Found a cool new product - instant tea packets from Celestial Seasonings, similar to the Crystal Light "On the Go" ones already on the market. They are lightly sweetened with Stevia. For purposes of calories and carbs I'm counting it the same as Crystal Light because it is powdered. Check the tea section at your local supermarket!

No gym so I walked the 1.5 miles from the BART station. It was trying to rain. Winter is almost here, which will cut down on my walking.

Walked over 16,000 steps yesterday. Today I should be able to break halfway to my 1 million step goal. Go me!


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Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Week 7 Weigh-In

49 days cheat freeWeight: 142.6
Calories eaten yesterday: 1582
Calories burned: 2134
Calorie deficit/overage: -552
Fat: 78g (46%)
Carbs: 55g (15%)
Protein: 108g (29%)
Calories burned in exercise: 296

Week 1: 147.6
Week 2: 147.6
Week 3: 147.6
Week 4: 146 (-1.6)
Week 5: 145.4 (-0.6)
Week 6: 144.6 (-0.8)
Week 7: 142.6

Total gain/loss: -5.0

Woohoo! Lost 2 pounds this week! Wowsers! Of course, I won't be surprised to not show a loss next week, but that's okay. The general trend is down and that's what matters. Yesterday I was 144.2, which is down 0.4 from last week and probably a truer indicator of how much I lost. I've been hecka thirsty today for water, so yesterday's whoosh probably dehydrated me a bit. Still, I was 142.4 last Friday, so who knows?

I celebrated my loss with a strawberry Dasani sweetened with Splenda, and a Starbuck's coffee with sugar free vanilla syrup.

I've been doing something before bed recently that may help me loose weight, and gets more water into me: before I drink my wine I drink a 20 oz. bottle of water. :)

7 weeks cheat free today! Yay for me! I really think the magnesium has helped. However, I can feel myself slipping and about to go over the edge, so I have no idea how much longer I can last. I sense it will not be long.

I walked over 16,000 steps yesterday.


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Monday, October 02, 2006

Day 48

48 days cheat freeWeight: 144.2
Calories eaten yesterday: 1384
Calories burned: 2176
Calorie deficit/overage: -792
Calories burned in exercise: 357
Fat: 69g (47%)
Net carbs: 43g (13%)
Protein: 98g (30%)

144.2 this morning. All I have to do it hold this weight until tomorrow to show a loss. I'll still be drinking tons of water, though, and of course eating lower calorie. Week 7 weigh-in. Yike. I just have this bad feeling I'll rebound just because my body hates me.

Went to the gym today for just cardio, since I did weights yesterday. They were slammed! Yike. I had to start with a stationary bike because it was the only thing open besides the treadmills, which I always do last. So 20 minutes on the bike, then the stairmaster was free, so 5 on the stairmaster (I couldn't get the stupid thing to count steps so I stopped at 5 minutes), and 20 on the elliptical. I finished with 30 minutes of treadmill walking. FitDay says I burned 296 calories.

It's supposed to rain starting Wednesday and continuing the rest of the week. *sigh* The first good rain of the season is when I officially say it's winter, so it looks like fall is almost over and winter is almost here. Winter means less walking because I won't walk to work in the rain.

My pastor visited here Friday night to "check up on me." Good thing I don't have anything to hide! I found his site tracker entry and he was here a little over 12 minutes.

I decided to only take pictures of my pedometers when I take 15,000 or more steps. I've been making 14,000 pretty frequently and am getting tired of taking pictures, lol! Of course, I always track my steps daily at Walker Tracker. I have over 200 miles wracked up so far!

Walked over 15,000 steps yesterday.


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Sunday, October 01, 2006

Just another manic Sunday...

47 days cheat freeCalories eaten Friday: 1774
Calories burned: 2078
Calorie deficit/overage: -304
Calories burned in exercise: 252
Fat: 84g (44%)
Net carbs: 58g (13%)
Protein: 92g (22%)

My weight Saturday morning was up to 143.8. It went up even though I behaved myself on Friday and went for a long walk around the lake. :-p I hate it when that happens. I am up again today; I don't even need the scale to tell me that after pigging out on low-carb foods on Saturday.

*sigh* As I told you, my body wants to be fat and unhealthy. After all, it was that way for so long. 47 cheat free days? It doesn't care or even notice. It just keeps holding onto the fat.

The cheesecake I made for the potluck had a tendency to fall apart (tasted great, though!). I think it was the chips I added; they were not in the original recipe. When I make it for Thanksgiving I'll just sprinkle them on top and not put them in the mix.

Went to the gym and did 45 minutes of weight training, leaving only a half hour for cardio. So I walked from BART to work for make up for it. FitDay says 357 calories.

I have a bad feeling that I won't show a loss this week. I've worked hard, but probably not as hard as I could. I'm madly detoxing from my weekend, but somehow my body just wants to hold onto weight (and fat) for dear life, no matter what I eat or how much I exercise.

Walked over 17,000 steps Friday. Yay!


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What Famous Student Are You?


What Famous Student Are You?


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Friday, September 29, 2006

Walking the Lake

45 days cheat freeWeight: 142.4
Calories eaten yesterday: 1665
Calories burned: 1943
Calorie deficit/overage: -278
Calories burned in exercise: 104
Fat: 80g (45%)
Net carbs: 54g (14%)
Protein: 101g (25%)

45 days cheat free today! I really think the magnesium is helping me stay on track by blunting the cravings.

142.2 this morning. Yay! I know I will gain a bunch tomorrow because I won't be counting and then have to lose it by Tuesday to come in under last week's official weight of 144.6. I hope I will show a loss!

Walked around Lake Merritt today. That's a long trail! Took me an hour to cover just the lake, not counting walking to and from the bus. A picture of the lake from the Oakland Park Department is below.


I also baked the sugar free chocolate chocolate chip cheesecake. It's cheesecake with sugar free chocolate pudding and chocolate chips added. I sprinkled cinnamon on top. Low-carb is sooo depriving, lol! It looks good, but I can't test it until tomorrow. The batter sure tasted good, though. I'm having cheesecake for breakfast tomorrow! Woohoo! I can't wait. :)

chocolate chocolate chip cheesecake
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Thursday, September 28, 2006

Thanksgiving will be with my family... :(

44 days cheat freeWeight: 143
Calories eaten yesterday: 1653
Calories burned: 2094
Calorie deficit/overage: -441
Calories burned in exercise: 265
Fat: 80g (46%)
Net carbs: 54g (14%)
Protein: 124g (31%)

As of yesterday I have over 400,000 steps toward my million step challenge. I'll make it!

I went grocery shopping, but Safeway was out of pork rinds. I walked the last 1.5 miles to work and stopped at WalMart for the pork rinds. Tonight is laundry. I bought more breakfast sausage so I'll fry that up. It gets cooked in the microwave, but looks terrible if it isn't fried first.

Tomorrow I'm going to try making the sugar free chocolate cheesecake. I think I will also add some sugar free chocolate chips. Speaking of sugar free, Safeway had sugar free Torani vanilla syrup today. I snagged a bottle.

The big news today...my sister is free for Thanksgiving so it looks like I'm spending Thanksgiving with her and Dad in Seattle. Gack. And double gack...she wants me to drive up with Dad. She has a four day weekend; I do not. I gained 10 pounds during the time I was at her house for her wedding. She's a low-fatter. This is going to majorly suck, even if I do some low-carb cooking, which I plan to. I still see so much hard work going down the drain. One day off plan, okay. But 3-4 days off plan? The last time I did that for my glucose tolerance test I gained 10 pounds - weight I am still trying to get off.

April has never had a weight problem in her life and doesn't take a medication that makes her hungry 24/7. She also doesn't have the issues with food that I do. So she doesn't understand why I have to low-carb and why a little cheat can turn into a major binge, or that I really can gain 10 pounds of real weight in 5 days.

I finally got back to the 6th notch on my belt today. I am so not happy about this news.

One piece of good news - I got my reimbursement check from my employer for 80% of the $600 I spent at the dentist last week. Now I can put some money toward the rent. Thankfully, there were three paychecks this month instead of the usual two, so I'm not hurting at least.

Walked over 14,000 steps yesterday.


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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

So tired...

43 days cheat freeWeight: 143.2
Calories eaten yesterday: 1521
Calories burned: 1953
Calorie deficit/overage: -432
Calories burned in exercise: 90
Fat: 80g (49%)
Net carbs: 48g (13%)
Protein: 102g (28%)

Down to 143.2 today. Yippee!

Working out makes me so tired. After 45 minutes of weight training, 22 on the treadclimber, 8 on the elliptical, and 9 walking on the treadmill, I am so wiped out. A medium coffee at Starbucks did nothing, and my 16 oz. diet Rock Star energy drink is only minimal help. Could it be lack of food? I had a protein shake after my workout, so that's some calories right there. At least FitDay says I burned 265 calories, and my graph is showing an overall downward trend (finally!). That's something.

No gym tomorrow; it's grocery day. Gee, is it Wednesday already? This week is flying by! I can't believe tomorrow's my Friday. Yippee!

My walker tracker badge has been updated to add miles along with total steps and average steps. Check in the upper part of the left column for the new addition.

I don't know how long I can keep up this lower calorie diet, even if I am losing. I go hungry enough on 1900 calories a day. You can imagine what 15 or 1600 does to me! I'm so close to goal, but I can't lose at 1900 calories a day no matter how low my carbs are. I do believe low-carb is the healthiest way to eat because it's the way our paleolithic ancestors ate, but for weight loss, it really does come down to the calories for me, not the carbs. Low-carb does help diminish those constant carb cravings I used to have, though.

I started Atkins because it promised that I wouldn't have to go hungry to lose weight. I haven't found that true for myself, though I know many others swear it's true. I chalk it up to my medication. I believe it causes weight gain by 1) causing carb cravings and the whole insulin cycle, and 2) causing me to just plain be hungry all the time.

But I probably wouldn't have tried very hard to lose weight knowing what I know now - at least for me, weight loss AND maintenance will involve some hunger. I can handle that now. Two and a half years ago I couldn't have.

The forecast for the next week is cooler weather so it looks like the Bay Area's short autumn season is here. Time to pull out the long sleeved shirts and the sweatshirts. The first rain of winter shouldn't happen for about another month.

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