My trigger points - Just venting, take 10

I feel lower than low for having to write that stupid letter. I just want to crawl into a hole and die. I'm so angry at N., the people who reported me, and God. Especially God for making me write that letter. It's one of the most odious things I have ever had to do. And it's not the first time. It's so d*mn unfair and He doesn't even care. I don't even argue anymore because I already know what He'll say if I try.