Sunday, August 31, 2008

Worst. Weekend. Ever. And Week 75 Weigh-In

Start: 154
Week 1: 150 (-4) - Week 2: 148.6 (-1.4)
Week 3: 146 (-2.6) - Week 4: 147.2 (+1.2)
Week 5: 145.6 (-1.6) - Week 6: 144 (-1.6)
Week 7: 143 (-1) - Week 8: 142.8 (-0.2)
Week 9: 143.6 (+0.8) - Week 10: 141.2 (-2.4)
Week 11: 143.8 (+2.6) - Week 12: 142.4 (-1.4)
Week 13: 142.4 (-0) - Week 14: 141.6 (-0.8)
Week 15: 139.4 (-2.2) - Week 16: 140 (+0.6)
Week 17: 139.2 (-0.8) - Week 18: 139 (-0.2)
Week 19: 138 (-1) - Week 20: 135.4 (-2.6)
Week 21: 137.2 (+1.8) - Week 22: 139.6 (+2.4)
Week 23: 143.2 (+3.6) - Week 24: 143.6 (+0.4)
Week 25: 137.6 (-6) - Week 26: 139.6 (+2)
Week 27: 142 (+2.4) - Week 28: 137.2 (-4.8)
Week 29: 137 (-0.2) - Week 30: 136.8 (-0.2)
Week 31: 142.2 (+5.4) - Week 32: 136.8 (-5.4)
Week 33: 137.8 (+1) - Week 34: 135.8 (-2)
Week 35: 137.6 (+1.8) - Week 36: 143.8 (+6.2)
Week 37: 142.8 (-1) - Week 38: 140 (-2.8)
Week 39: 142.4 (+2.4) - Week 40: 140.4 (-2)
Week 41: 139.6 (-0.8) - Week 42: 142 (+2.4)
Week 43: N/A - Week 44: 141 (-1)
Week 45: 138.8 (-2.2) - Week 46: 139.6 (+0.8)
Week 47: 133.6 (-6) - Week 48: 132.4 (-1.2)
Week 49: 138.6 (+6.2) - Week 50: 138.4 (-0.2)
Week 51: 138.8 (+0.4) - Week 52: 139.4 (+0.6)
Week 53: 137.8 (-1.6) - Week 54: 139.4 (+1.6)
Week 55: 137.6 (-1.8) - Week 56: 136.4 (-1.2)
Week 57: 136.6 (+0.2) - Week 58: 139.4 (+2.8)
Week 59: 136.6 (-2.8) - Week 60: 134.6 (-2)
Week 61: 137 (+2.4) - Week 62: 138.6 (+1.6)
Week 63: 137 (-1.6) - Week 64: 137 (-0)
Week 65: 141.8 (+4.8) - Week 66: 135.4 (-6.4)
Week 67: 136 (+0.6) - Week 68: 139.2 (+3.2)
Week 69: 137.2 (-2) - Week 70: 138.2 (+1)
Week 71: 136.4 (-1.8) - Week 72: 140 (+3.6)
Week 73: 139.4 (-0.6) - Week 74: 140 (+0.6)
Week 75: 137.6 (-2.4)
Total loss: -16.4

Ok, now to catch up on other numbers.

Calories eaten Wednesday: 1230
Fat: 28g (20%)
Carbs: 92g (30%)
Protein: 156g (50%)
Weight Wednesday morning: 129.8 (One week ago: 130.4)
Calories burned in exercise Wednesday: 89

I was in San Francisco on Thursday playing tourist for part of the day, then got called into work. :( Anyway, I ate all my meals out.
Weight Thursday morning: 129 (One week ago: 129)
Calories burned in exercise Thursday: 0

Calories eaten Friday: 1165
Fat: 16g (13%)
Carbs: 75g (27%)
Protein: 91g (33%)
Weight Friday morning: n/a (One week ago: 128.2)
Calories burned in exercise Friday: 0

Weight Saturday Weight Saturday morning: 136.2 (One week ago: 130.4)
Calories burned in exercise Saturday: 0

Calories burned in exercise today: 69

It's been a really long weekend. The past three days have just been from hell. Let's start at the beginning. If you don't want to read this post, that's fine. This is more of a public journal entry and may interest no one but myself.

I wanted Thursday, August 28th off so I could have a little one day vacation and play tourist in San Francisco. I called "S" and asked her if she wanted to fill in for me; I also asked for a few hours off on September 3 for a doctor's appointment. "S" was in Indiana at the time (on vacation) and evidently didn't write down the dates. When she finally did, she remembered the first date wrong as Thursday, September 25th, and went on the make plans for August 28th.

I had told her the correct date; she wrote it down wrong. However, because I failed to conform via e-mail (the only mistake *I* made), the wrong thing was about to be pinned 100% on me because - you guessed it - "S" didn't show up to cover my shift, and I was in San Francisco at the time, near Marina Green, at the cable car turnaround.

Let's start at the very beginning. Before the shit hit the fan, I was having a really good day. I left home without breakfast or coffee and had a donut at a donut shop, then a thick slab of pumpkin loaf with chocolate chips with a cut of regular coffee at a coffee shop.

I went to the ferry, only to discover that I had the wrong ferry. I had double checked and was pretty sure I was right, but I was not. Two guys were there checking out the schedule and they offered me a ride to BART so I could take BART into the City.

Once in San Francisco I bought a bus/cable car day pass and took the F trolley to Pier 39 to shop for a while. I bought socks and a nightshirt and had two ladies take a picture of me with Alcatraz in the background. I also saw the sea lions that take over a section of docks every year. There used to be boats docked there, but the sea lions pushed them out.

I went to Starbucks and had a latte with a chocolate biscotti and a petite vanilla scone. Then on to Hooters where I had Mozzarella Sticks with a light beer and got a photo taken of me and my waitress. I really love that restaurant. Then I went to Subway and had a low-fat turkey sub on sourdough, a large Diet Coke, and two cookies. I ate one and saved the other for later.

I walked up to Buena Vista, where the best Irish coffee is made, but I wasn't hungry and didn't want to drink too much yet. The cable car turnaround was right there so I got in line and figured I'd take a cable car ride downtown and back, then have the Irish coffees. It was while I waited in line that all hell broke loose re: work.

See, it doesn't matter that "S" didn't confirm my time off with me, or that her name was clearly written down on the shift calendar. It doesn't matter that she verbally told me she would work that shift and that she had written it down wrong. It doesn't matter that my boss "J" didn't confirm with either of us. Nope, none of that makes any difference. Because I failed to send one e-mail, "J" - being judge and god of this department - said it was 100% my fault and called me in. "It's on you. It's your shift," were his words to me.

All this was compounded because "L" had called in sick the night before and Brad had filled in for her, leaving boss "J" to fill in Brad's morning shift. When no one shows up to relieve the boss, it's really bad.

No one believed me when I said I needed the day off. They just assumed that I wanted it and since "J" and "S" both had vacations, they didn't understand the stress I have been under. Other than being sick, I haven't taken any time off in ages. I couldn't go to Conference this year, so I never had any time to destress.

I melted down. I cried, in public, all the way from the cable car turnaround to BART. I was hurting too bad to care, but I did keep my sunglasses on. I stopped briefly at Starbucks in San Francisco to buy comfort food and stuff myself even though I wasn't hungry. I also ate my other Subway cookie. Total stress eating.

Brad picked me up at BART and I had a complete meltdown. Thank God "J" had left for the day. "S" got out of there fast, not knowing how to deal with me and blaming me for her having to come in for the hour or so it took me to get to work from SF. Poor baby. NOT!

I couldn't stop crying and certainly couldn't work. The stress overtook me and left me completely unable to do anything. Brad finally called "L" and asked her to come a little early. She couldn't make it until 8 p.m., so Brad got "M" from downstairs to fill-in until "L" got there.

I didn't want to go home. I was far too upset and wanted to drink. So we went to Applebee's and I had two Mochatinis and a glass of wine, plus I bought a burger and fries dinner to go. Brad and I did some grocery shopping, then went home and I had my collapsed again. I reheated my Applebee's dinner a little later and had that. I couldn't sleep, however, and it was around dawn when I finally fell asleep.

(Fair warning: skip the next paragraph if bathroom talk offends you. You have been warned.)

I slept until the afternoon on Friday and was in no shape to go paddleboating with Brad, plus it was too late anyway. I didn't leave the house all day, but managed a modicum of housework. The mental stress took it's toll physically and I had bad diarrhea all that day and part of Saturday too. In fact, when I woke up Saturday morning I had somehow pooped my pants when I slept. In case you think it was from my Alli pills, no it wasn't. I can tell the difference and this wasn't grease; it was poop. I also flet sick to my stomach and ate very little on Friday.

Saturday I felt a little better and Brad and I went to church. I was able to eat more normally. We left right after church and didn't stay for lunch. I did grab one of the potluck hot dogs on the way out, though.

We stopped at a shopping mall looking for Kragen store. There wasn't one, but there was a Bev-Mo. We looked for a bottle of Jacob's Creek Riesling, which I had been unable to find in San Francisco. They didn't have it so I settled for another Riesling. We also went to Payless Shoes because I really needed two new pairs of shoes. My current two pairs were worn out. I bought one pair of walking shoes and one pair of running shoes; also, a cute purse that was on sale.

After that we went home and pay-per-viewed a Japanese-style horror flick, Shutter. We saw the unrated "TV-MA" version, which is about 5 minutes longer than the PG-13 version. We tried to guess which scenes were deleted. The film was okay. I'm not into Japanese-style horror.

We drank wine and ate popcorn while watching the movie and rested. About 9 p.m. we went to New Zealander for dinner. I behaved and had a low-carb dinner with no dessert (lamb cheese burger, no bun, and side salad), and had two more drinks.

Afterwards, the stress eating overtook me. If the restaurant had offered chocolate cake I would have ordered it. Instead, I went to McDonald's, ordered a cheeseburger Happy Meal with a small chocolate shake, and a chocolate dipped cone. I know, I was bad. At home I had two servings of cold oatmeal - a total of 1 cup of oatmeal and 2 60-calorie yogurts. Also my cottage cheese/Muscle Milk bedtime snack.

I didn't drink anymore, but I was way over my limit and taking those Chaser pills that are supposed to help prevent hangovers. When I finally fell asleep I slept for about 11 hours.

Today I felt well enough to walk from my apartment to BART; from there I took the 50 bus all the way through Alameda and back into Oakland to work. I feel a little better, but still not 100% and I have to face boss "J" tomorrow. I'm still not ready to go back to the gym. I still have more recovering to do. Today I'm eating food that's easy on my tummy - Cream of Wheat, yogurt, and cottage cheese. Also my usual raw veggies and salad.

My weight was down today from last Sunday, but I think it's dehydration from the alcohol and I feel bloated. I need to pound the water and get back on my diet to get rid of it.

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Wednesday, August 27, 2008

3 day weekend :)

Calories eaten yesterday: 1302
Fat: 32g (22%)
Carbs: 99g (30%)
Protein: 161g (49%)
Weight this morning: 129.8 (One week ago: 130.4)
Calories burned in exercise today: 89

Strength training:
None

Cardio:
Walking with my laundry cart down to the laundromat and back (33 minutes round trip). Then I walked to the bank and back (about 15 minutes round trip).

Minor victory:
The laundromat (I kid you not!) has a donut shop inside it. They also sell drinks and carby food. If they have anything diet I'll usually get something. Well, as I buy my diet Snapple drink, the donuts looked so good. They also had donut holes and I asked to buy one. The woman tried to be nice to me and give me 3. I said no, I just wanted one. So she put back two. So I had one donut hole (about 2 bites). I figure that wouldn't hurt. 3 donut holes would be asking for trouble though. Oh, that one donut hole was soooo good.

Tomorrow I am taking a free day food-wise and going into the City to play tourist for a day. It's all the vacation I get. I'm planning a few treats, but not an all out binge. Bingeing with this thyroid issue sets me waaaay back.

Short workweek for me. I have tomorrow off to play tourist in the City. If I can go on a real vacation I can at least have fun locally. Then on Friday Brad and I are renting a paddle boat at Lake Chabot, packing some sandwiches, and peddling around the lake. Should be fun AND a workout!

We are looking at September 13 to hike the bicycle loop at the lake (12.5 miles). Church will be early that day due to a wedding. The wedding is in Sacramento and I don't fancy spending my day off in a car and at a wedding of someone I barely know. So Brad and I decided that would be a good day to do the loop. We've already done the hiking loop (8.5 miles), but we both want to challenge ourselves with the bicycle loop. :)

I'll see you all on Sunday with my weigh-in.

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Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Todd Bentley & the so-called Lakeland "Revival"

Calories eaten yesterday: 1258
Fat: 30g (21%)
Carbs: 92g (29%)
Protein: 159g (50%)
Weight this morning: 131.2 (One week ago: 132.8)
Calories burned in exercise today: 301

My workout is posted below, but let me "weigh-in" quickly on this Todd Bentley issue. Baptist Press has this to say about him:

Bentley claims that thousands of people have been healed and dozens been raised from the dead through his ministry, but prominent evangelical leaders warn that he's a fraud and false prophet. Bentley's meetings often involve "holy" laughter and "holy" shaking, and he claims to talk to angels and to Jesus in person.

While watching one of the many videos about him at YouTube, I heard a passing reference to the Assemblies of God church. I did know know that was the denomination that he identified himself as. I remembered that Kathi Sharpe (the woman I had that severe falling out with several years ago) was AOG.

I Googled her and found her blog. Sure enough (and very sadly) she is totally hooked on the man and even went to one of his services when he held meetings not far from her. And after it all she of course wants more.

Bentley is no longer preaching. He was exposed on Nightline as a charlatan (Part 1 of report and Part 2 of report). They were not able to confirm one single healing. He was also found to have had an extra-marital affair.

The guy is just another fake faith healer, preaching more about healing and angels than Jesus (audio proof). I find it very sad that Kathi has fallen for this. I would have thought her more discerning.

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Managed to get a full workout in. I was up at 10 a.m. and out the door by 10:45. Walked up the street and caught the 11:05 bus, getting to the gym a little after 11:30 and finally hitting the gym floor at about 11:55. That gave me time for an hour of weight training and a half hour of cardio. For weight training I did legs and butt with triceps and biceps thrown in for good measure.

After three days in a row at the gym I decided to take it easy for the cardio and just walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes.

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Monday, August 25, 2008

Bill blues & other stuff

Calories eaten yesterday: 1119
Fat: 27g (21%)
Carbs: 77g (27%)
Protein: 149g (52%)
Weight this morning: 133.6 (One week ago: 134.2)
Calories burned in exercise today: 208

Bill blues today. I got an $83 cell phone bill, much of it in overages. Verizon of course refuses to work with me. They want all their money by the due date, or else. Verizon is bar none the worst company I have ever had the displeasure of working with. Brad said to call him on his cell phone since it's also Verizon so I won't be charged minutes.

My first water bill also came today - $58. I think that's for two months so it's about $30 a month. Not too bad, but not in my budget either.

I'm learning more about being hypothyroid. I noticed my Free T3 Uptake was high and out of range, but the doctor didn't touch on that when he went through my blood tests with me. I asked about it on About.com's Thyroid Disease forum at this thread. Basically, it's an old test, Free T3 and Free T4 are better tests, and my high reading is consistent with being hypothyroid. Great. :-p

With my recent hypoglycemic diagnosis I decided to get back into testing my blood sugar again. My True Track meter still works even with expired test strips, but try as I might I could not get the Aviva to work with expired strips. I ended up throwing out a bunch and ordered one vial of 50 off e-Bay for about $20. I will use the Aviva when those strips come since I think it is more accurate than the True Track. Meanwhile, the True Track still gives me about what I would expect even with the expired strips.

Exercise today was 1 hour of upper body weight training at the gym, and then I walked to work from the train station. Tomorrow I hope to do the same except that I'll work my lower body. :) I felt SO much better at the gym today because I got enough sleep last night.

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Sunday, August 24, 2008

Week 74 Weigh-In

Start: 154
Week 1: 150 (-4) - Week 2: 148.6 (-1.4)
Week 3: 146 (-2.6) - Week 4: 147.2 (+1.2)
Week 5: 145.6 (-1.6) - Week 6: 144 (-1.6)
Week 7: 143 (-1) - Week 8: 142.8 (-0.2)
Week 9: 143.6 (+0.8) - Week 10: 141.2 (-2.4)
Week 11: 143.8 (+2.6) - Week 12: 142.4 (-1.4)
Week 13: 142.4 (-0) - Week 14: 141.6 (-0.8)
Week 15: 139.4 (-2.2) - Week 16: 140 (+0.6)
Week 17: 139.2 (-0.8) - Week 18: 139 (-0.2)
Week 19: 138 (-1) - Week 20: 135.4 (-2.6)
Week 21: 137.2 (+1.8) - Week 22: 139.6 (+2.4)
Week 23: 143.2 (+3.6) - Week 24: 143.6 (+0.4)
Week 25: 137.6 (-6) - Week 26: 139.6 (+2)
Week 27: 142 (+2.4) - Week 28: 137.2 (-4.8)
Week 29: 137 (-0.2) - Week 30: 136.8 (-0.2)
Week 31: 142.2 (+5.4) - Week 32: 136.8 (-5.4)
Week 33: 137.8 (+1) - Week 34: 135.8 (-2)
Week 35: 137.6 (+1.8) - Week 36: 143.8 (+6.2)
Week 37: 142.8 (-1) - Week 38: 140 (-2.8)
Week 39: 142.4 (+2.4) - Week 40: 140.4 (-2)
Week 41: 139.6 (-0.8) - Week 42: 142 (+2.4)
Week 43: N/A - Week 44: 141 (-1)
Week 45: 138.8 (-2.2) - Week 46: 139.6 (+0.8)
Week 47: 133.6 (-6) - Week 48: 132.4 (-1.2)
Week 49: 138.6 (+6.2) - Week 50: 138.4 (-0.2)
Week 51: 138.8 (+0.4) - Week 52: 139.4 (+0.6)
Week 53: 137.8 (-1.6) - Week 54: 139.4 (+1.6)
Week 55: 137.6 (-1.8) - Week 56: 136.4 (-1.2)
Week 57: 136.6 (+0.2) - Week 58: 139.4 (+2.8)
Week 59: 136.6 (-2.8) - Week 60: 134.6 (-2)
Week 61: 137 (+2.4) - Week 62: 138.6 (+1.6)
Week 63: 137 (-1.6) - Week 64: 137 (-0)
Week 65: 141.8 (+4.8) - Week 66: 135.4 (-6.4)
Week 67: 136 (+0.6) - Week 68: 139.2 (+3.2)
Week 69: 137.2 (-2) - Week 70: 138.2 (+1)
Week 71: 136.4 (-1.8) - Week 72: 140 (+3.6)
Week 73: 139.4 (-0.6) - Week 74: 140 (+0.6)
Total loss: -14

Ok, now to catch up on other numbers.

Calories eaten Thursday: 1313
Fat: 21g (14%)
Carbs: 88g (26%)
Protein: 157g (47%)
Weight Thursday morning: 129 (One week ago: 131)
Calories burned in exercise Thursday: 205

Calories eaten Friday: 1400
Fat: 17g (11%)
Carbs: 86g (25%)
Protein: 145g (42%)
Weight Friday morning: 128.2 (One week ago: 131)
Calories burned in exercise Friday: 328

Weight Saturday morning: 130.4 (One week ago: 133.6)
Calories burned in exercise Saturday: 141

Calories burned in exercise today: 271

First, it's my sister's birthday. She's turning 36! Eek!

Happy birthday, April!

It looks like the 0.6 I lost last week managed to find me this week. I just keep bouncing up and down but never losing. :(

Friday Brad and I walked around the West Ridge Trail area via the Orchard Trail, then down another trail, back up via the Golden Spike Trail and back down via the Chown Trail. We had to go up the the West Ridge Trail twice to get in 2 full hours and it came to about 2 hours and 15 minutes when we were done.

Saturday after church we walked once around Lake Merritt and then relaxed and drank wine. We had Dreamfield's pasta for dinner topped with no-sugar-added pasta sauce that was super thick with all the ground beef Brad cooked and added to it last week. We topped it off with low-far Parmesan cheese. Brad also talked me into Pay-Per-Viewing The Secret because it stars David Duchovny. It's a supernatural thriller and I enjoyed it. Though it's rated R, it seems to be so because of people doing drugs in the movie and not for blood and guts. Even the car crash scene was done well and not gory.

Ug! Today I am hung over, compounded by lack of sleep. Yesterday I had too much wine, too much food, and too little sleep. :-p

Brad had to be into work at 7 a.m. today since "P" is on probation and had two shifts taken away from him (he had to check in but is not allowed to work). Brad said if I wanted some extra hours I could come in early. He got up around 5:30 a.m. and headed into work. I made coffee and a protein shake for him last night to have this morning. I got up at 8, went to the gym, did just a quick cardio session (30 minute run, 5.2 mph, 2.6 miles) and then walked into work from the BART station. I clocked in a little before noon so that'll be about 3 hours of overtime.

Brad and I are both tired. We were up late last night after the movie talking about heavy stuff and life. At the gym I locked my key in my locker. I asked them to cut the lock off. Instead, she cut the little half circle the lock goes in, rendering that locker no longer useful until that part is replaced, but leaving my lock in good working condition. A lot of the lockers at the gym are scarred in such a way.

Brad's absentmindedness was different. I asked him to get my an iced coffee from Starbuck's. He got it, but came back without a straw and I asked him to please go back and get one. He's taking the rest of the day to go do some hiking and pray. He didn't want want to work today so I knew he would be happy for me to show up early so he could go do what he wanted to.

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Thursday, August 21, 2008

Week 74, Day 5

Calories eaten yesterday: 1227
Fat: 28g (20%)
Carbs: 89g (28%)
Protein: 159g (50%)
Weight this morning: 129 (One week ago: 131)
Calories burned in exercise today: 205

Did laundry - walked there and back, of course (16 minutes each way). Then I walked up to the bank and stopped at the natural food market for almond milk. Then I walked from my apartment down to the BART station and took the bus into work. Nothing else to speak of except for accidentally stepping on Xena's tail when I went to put my rollie cart away after putting away the clean laundry. Poor thing! She yelled something awful and fled under the table. I crawled under to pet her, and after growling at me thinking I had come to hurt her more she soon calmed down and seemed to realize that it was an accident.

Speaking of the cats, I've decided to feed them on the bed. Xena has pretty much abandoned the bed to Abby so feeding them there will hopefully help Xena to feel more like the bed belongs to her as well.

My latest doctor bill came today. Even with the 25% discount and my employer paying 80% my part came to $62.50! Good grief. It must have been the x-rays. :-p The original total bill was $410! Lupe said I could wait to pay my part until next week when we get paid because I have very little money in my account and need to pay for groceries.

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Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Book review - You: On A Diet

I recently finished You: On A Diet by Mehmet C. Oz & Michael F. Roizen. This book doesn't just lay out a diet plan, but addresses what goes on when we eat and the various chemicals in our bodies that effect our behaviors and body shape.

Part 1 is a sort of introduction to your body.

Part 2 is about appetite, your digestive system, inflammation, body fat, metabolism, and exercise. If you have ever wondered how food acts in your body and how food can effect how you feel and whether you store fat or burn it, this is the section for you.

Part 3 focuses on how your mind effects your diet - emotions and psychology.

Part 4 outlines the actual You diet and exercise plan and has a whole chapter about staying on plan by making "YOU-Turns" whenever you fall off the plan (and who sticks 100% to any diet 100% of the time?).

The appendices cover medical intervention - drugs that cane help you lose weight, plastic surgery for saggy skin, and various bariatric procedures (stomach stapling, etc.).

Throughout the book are little cartoons that illustrate the points made in the text. I found these helpful even though I am not a visual person.

My main criticism is that they trot out the same old low-fat advice that hasn't helped America yet, and that they promote unhealthy vegetable oils. Neither do I believe that saturated fat is the enemy, though Mehmet and Oz do.

This book is a good start, but I urge people to go beyond this and read more about vegetable oils and saturated fat and see if Mehmet and Oz are right in their views or not. Personally, the only oils I allow in my house are olive and coconut. Yes, coconut oil is a saturated fat.

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Dannon yogurt

Calories eaten yesterday: 1249
Fat: 30g (21%)
Carbs: 75g (24%)
Protein: 170g (53%)
Weight this morning: 130.4 (One week ago: n/a)
Calories burned in exercise today: 153

I slept in this morning. I must have been very tired. I got to bed a little after 2 a.m. (only a little later than normal) and when I opened my eyes it was nearly 12:30 p.m.! Yikes.

I walked down to the BART station from my house and discovered is takes about 30 minutes. I walked to the grocery store my my ending BART station and got yogurt and cottage cheese, then took the bus the rest of the way in.

I called the Red Cross to reschedule my blood donation since I still have the remnants of my cold. Now I go in Sept. 5.

On the yogurt issue, Dannon is making all their 60 calorie Light N' Fit yogurts into 80 calorie yogurts by adding even more sugar. I've been buying up all the old 60 calorie ones I can find, so I'll be eating a lot of yogurt for a while, lol! It actually does quite well with protein powder for breakfast. This morning I took a raspberry one and mixed it with a scoop of chocolate caramel whey protein to make a chocolate caramel raspberry yogurt that packs a protein punch. Yummy.

I wrote to Dannon and told them I wasn't going to buy their yogurt anymore. At 80 calories a serving I might as well have fat-free cottage cheese which has the same calories, but less sugar and more protein. So no more Dannon yogurt when my little stash is gone. I am not happy.

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Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Just stuff...

Calories eaten yesterday: 1299
Fat: 29g (19%)
Carbs: 94g (29%)
Protein: 167g (50%)
Weight this morning: 132.8 (One week ago: n/a)
Calories burned in exercise today: 83

Went into San Francisco to check my mail and that was about it. Bought some groceries on the walk in to work. Dannon is getting rid of their 60 calorie yogurts, adding sugar, and re-releasing them as 80 calories. I have been buying up all the 60 calorie ones I can afford, and yes, I wrote Dannon to express my displeasure and told them that they will be losing this customer.

I'm very hungry today after two days of working out hard and eating low calorie. I bought some cerely sticks at the store and ate the whole package, lol! But celery is very low calorie so it didn't hurt my diet.

My 1-day "vacation" is tentatively set for August 28. That's a Thursday and I am taking one vacation day and cashing it in to find this one. That will use up the rest of them. I'm going to go into the City and just kind of hit a bunch of cool places, such as Buena Vista for their Irish coffee and Hooters, plus that little wine shop on Pier 39 that Brad and I discovered before. Maybe I'll hit some of the tourist attractions. I'll try not to eat too bad, lol.

Then Brad and I are supposed to rent a paddle boat at Lake Chabot on Friday (and he's taking a half day off). We'll see if he has his half of the money for it or if it mysteriously gets eaten up. They aren't that expensive and we are each paying half so his part is super cheap, but things always seem to happen.

Not sure if I'll go to the gym tomorrow. I am still getting over the rest of this cold and might just sleep in. My legs are so sore from my workout yesterday I'm not sure what cardio I would be up to anyway. I'm just plain tired and my thyroid and iron pills don't seem to be helping.

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Monday, August 18, 2008

Week 74, Day 2

Calories eaten yesterday: 1187
Fat: 28g (21%)
Carbs: 77g (26%)
Protein: 155g (52%)
Weight this morning: 134.2 (One week ago: n/a)
Calories burned in exercise today: 407

Nothing much today, just getting back into my routine again, which feels good. Made it to the gym and did lower body for weights and the elliptical (with the moving arm handles) for my cardio. Walked to work from the train station and am exhausted!

Tomorrow I run into San Francisco to check my P.O. box.

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Sunday, August 17, 2008

Week 73 Weigh-In

Start: 154
Week 1: 150 (-4) - Week 2: 148.6 (-1.4)
Week 3: 146 (-2.6) - Week 4: 147.2 (+1.2)
Week 5: 145.6 (-1.6) - Week 6: 144 (-1.6)
Week 7: 143 (-1) - Week 8: 142.8 (-0.2)
Week 9: 143.6 (+0.8) - Week 10: 141.2 (-2.4)
Week 11: 143.8 (+2.6) - Week 12: 142.4 (-1.4)
Week 13: 142.4 (-0) - Week 14: 141.6 (-0.8)
Week 15: 139.4 (-2.2) - Week 16: 140 (+0.6)
Week 17: 139.2 (-0.8) - Week 18: 139 (-0.2)
Week 19: 138 (-1) - Week 20: 135.4 (-2.6)
Week 21: 137.2 (+1.8) - Week 22: 139.6 (+2.4)
Week 23: 143.2 (+3.6) - Week 24: 143.6 (+0.4)
Week 25: 137.6 (-6) - Week 26: 139.6 (+2)
Week 27: 142 (+2.4) - Week 28: 137.2 (-4.8)
Week 29: 137 (-0.2) - Week 30: 136.8 (-0.2)
Week 31: 142.2 (+5.4) - Week 32: 136.8 (-5.4)
Week 33: 137.8 (+1) - Week 34: 135.8 (-2)
Week 35: 137.6 (+1.8) - Week 36: 143.8 (+6.2)
Week 37: 142.8 (-1) - Week 38: 140 (-2.8)
Week 39: 142.4 (+2.4) - Week 40: 140.4 (-2)
Week 41: 139.6 (-0.8) - Week 42: 142 (+2.4)
Week 43: N/A - Week 44: 141 (-1)
Week 45: 138.8 (-2.2) - Week 46: 139.6 (+0.8)
Week 47: 133.6 (-6) - Week 48: 132.4 (-1.2)
Week 49: 138.6 (+6.2) - Week 50: 138.4 (-0.2)
Week 51: 138.8 (+0.4) - Week 52: 139.4 (+0.6)
Week 53: 137.8 (-1.6) - Week 54: 139.4 (+1.6)
Week 55: 137.6 (-1.8) - Week 56: 136.4 (-1.2)
Week 57: 136.6 (+0.2) - Week 58: 139.4 (+2.8)
Week 59: 136.6 (-2.8) - Week 60: 134.6 (-2)
Week 61: 137 (+2.4) - Week 62: 138.6 (+1.6)
Week 63: 137 (-1.6) - Week 64: 137 (-0)
Week 65: 141.8 (+4.8) - Week 66: 135.4 (-6.4)
Week 67: 136 (+0.6) - Week 68: 139.2 (+3.2)
Week 69: 137.2 (-2) - Week 70: 138.2 (+1)
Week 71: 136.4 (-1.8) - Week 72: 140 (+3.6)
Week 73: 139.4 (-0.6)
Total loss: -14.6

Ok, now to catch up on other numbers.

Calories eaten Thursday: 1110
Fat: 22g (17%)
Carbs: 66g (24%)
Protein: 160g (57%)
Weight Thursday morning: 131 (One week ago: 130.2)
Calories burned in exercise Thursday: 101

Calories eaten Friday: 1372
Fat: 17g (11%)
Carbs: 81g (24%)
Protein: 140g (41%)
Weight Friday morning: 131 (One week ago: 129.2)
Calories burned in exercise Friday: 265

Weight Saturday morning: 133.6 (One week ago: n/a)
Calories burned in exercise Saturday: 253

Calories burned in exercise today: 521

I know I didn't weigh-in last week. Too much bingeing made me afraid of the scale. This time I stayed on plan all week. Because I was sick Monday-Thursday I kept my calories to a minimum - under 1200 a day. I wasn't getting much exercise so I needed fewer calories to maintain.

I'm still trying to get the timing of my thyroid medication down. This week I'll try taking it first thing in the morning before anything else by setting it on top of the coffee maker so when I start the coffee I take my pill. Then I will take my anti-depressant and vitamins a little later at breakfast and my iron and calcium pills in the afternoon when I get to work.

Thyroid meds have a number of interactions - specifically I can't take them any time near my calcium and iron supplements.

I went to the gym today and did an hour of upper body weight training with one ab exercise, then ran for 32 minutes on the treadmill. I was determined to get to 5k (3.11 miles). I hit that shortly after 31 minutes, and at 32 minutes was at 3.16. Usually I go for time, but today I decided to go for distance and do a 5k (rounded up to the nearest minute).

My knee is really telling me I pushed too hard. It's swollen and hurts a little, but I did the 1.5 mile walk to work from the train anyway.

I'm back on the wagon for another week of being strict.

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Thursday, August 14, 2008

"S" is for Sick

Calories eaten Sunday: 986 (no, that's not a typo)
Fat: 25g (22%)
Carbs: 56g (22%)
Protein: 135g (53%)
Calories burned in exercise today: 0

After bingeing for two days I just wasn't very hungry.

Calories eaten Monday: 1112
Fat: 25g (19%)
Carbs: 73g (26%)
Protein: 150g (53%)
Calories burned in exercise today: 176

Calories eaten Tuesday: 1104
Fat: 22g (18%)
Carbs: 79g (29%)
Protein: 143g (52%)
Weight this morning: xx (One week ago: 135.8)
Calories burned in exercise today: 217

Calories eaten Wednesday: 1169
Fat: 22g (17%)
Carbs: 79g (27%)
Protein: 157g (54%)
Calories burned in exercise today: 122

Weight Thursday morning: 131
Calories burned in exercise today: 101

After a week of not weighing in I finally did today. Those two days of bingeing really did a number on me, but four days of super strict dieting has undone at least some of the damage. I'm still above where I should be. I've been eating really light to make up for the lack of exercise.

I know I haven't posted since Sunday, and there was no Sunday weigh-in. I've been sick with a cold and I don't usually update if I'm sick. I need my energy just to take care of all the usual life stuff. We'll call this week a wash and just pick up next Sunday with my regular weigh-ins.

Today I am just working a half shift. I'm still sick, but I'm down to just one day of sick time left. I'm doing the first half of today's shift which should be easier than the later half. Then I will have all weekend to recover.

The accident on Friday really messed up my spine, but two visits to the chiropractor helped.

Tonight Brad will pick me up when Lisa comes in. She said she could be there at 7:30 tonight. Then I have to do some basic shopping since it's payday. When I get home I'll take a shower, have something to eat, and go to bed.

See you all Sunday with my weigh-in. I'm going to be a good girl tomorrow. :)

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Sunday, August 10, 2008

Injuries and new meds

No weigh-in today. I know I am well over 140 now after pretty much bingeing for the past two days. So well call next week

Lots of stuff happening here, not good.

I had a doctor appointment on Friday (to get new meds) after which I was supposed to give blood. Brad was driving me and needed to stop for gas. I ran into the station to put some money on a pump. On the way in I tripped over the curb and fell too fast to even put out my hands. I slammed squarely into the glass door with my head, and my right knee came down hard on the concrete sidewalk. :(

Since we were headed to the doctor he took X-rays and says nothing is broken (the blessings of a larger bone structure), but my right knee is swollen and both knees have bruises. My head has a nice cut, not a good sign since I slammed into something flat.

Head photo 1 - Head photo 2
Knee photo 1 - Knee photo 2

I actually felt better a while after the incident and though I nixed the idea of giving blood, Brad and I did walk about 3 miles (I wore a tight knee brace!). But this morning I woke up feeling like death warmed over. When I slammed my head into the door I must have hurt the muscles in my neck and shoulders because now it hurts just to turn my head.

Anyway, I am going to be out of commission for a while. About the only thing I can do right now is walk if I have a good knee brace on. There's no way I can do either upper or lower body weights with my neck, shoulders, and knees all messed up. I need rest, heat on my neck and shoulders, and ice on my right knee. Last night I got to bed around 2 a.m. (I was working on my Flickr photos (24 Hours of Flickr) and researching hypothyroidism (.pdf booklet) and slept until 1 p.m. today.

I made the mistake of starting my binge-when-I-donate-blood before I actually made it to the blood center. It won't happen again. Next time when I give blood I won't eat off plan (and will eat fairly light) until I actually get there. All I can say to my readers is, "Sorry. I let things get way out of control."

The doctor said to take an anti-inflammatory and that the swelling in the right knee should go down in 7-10 days, so I'm taking two Ibuprofen three times a day. I'm also taking one aspirin a day to help prevent any clots, since I know that can be an issue with a head injury.

By the way, I felt lightheaded and nauseous after the incident and when the doctor's office took my blood pressure and it was something like 70/50! :o It eventually came back up. I used one of those drugstore machines and it was back up to a little above what is normal for me (my normal is about 99/69).

The left knee looks worse today, with a nice bruise. There is also some bruising spreading to my forehead from the head injury.

By the way, I am now officially hypothyroid and on medication (Levothyroxine aka Synthroid (photo) - 50mcg a day - 0.05mg), and because my ferritin was low he told me to take an OTC iron supplement. He went over my glucose tolerance test results and said he has never seen a more clear cut case of hypoglycemia than me. In hour 3 of the test my blood sugar was all the way down to 30 and I was still walking and talking! The remedy - what I am already doing - eating frequently. I go back on September 3 for more blood tests to see how the thyroid meds are working. I need to get my TSH down and my Free T3 and T4 up.

I came into work today, not realizing how messed up my shoulders were, but I am taking tomorrow off as a sick day. I also have a sore throat so I fear I'm coming down with something, but I won't know about that until I see how I feel tomorrow.

At any rate, no gym for a while. Sorry. I'm not trying to get out of it, but if I try to work out in this condition I'll probably only make things worse. Once I get a couple good sleep in days and get my energy back I might at least be able to walk on the treadmill.

I didn't weigh myself this morning. My eating has been the worst of the worst so I'm just going to pound the water, eat low calorie, and wait.

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Friday, August 08, 2008

More Re: A response to my critics

I decided to post Melissa's latest response to me here, followed by Brad's response to her.

Melissa's baseless accusations:
Melissa has left a new comment on your post ""S" is for Stress":

Make up your mind. You are the one that said that it was deleted due to name calling, not me.

IMO, there's no difference in Brad buying you diet pills and Brad buying your groceries because you spent all your money on diet pills. I guess you are use to being supported since you still get the checks from daddy. At your age, that must be nice. Yes, yes, I know that's none of my business, but remember that you are the one that put it out there.

That's great that you and Brad share. That's what this world is all about. I certainly can't see myself nickel and dime my friends if they share with what I have. Good grief! I definitely wouldn't lambaste them on a public blog for accidentally losing something.

Oh, and BTW, I never claimed to know everything about you or follow you around. That's creepy! All I know is what you post here. That's the way blog work you see. Paranoid and defensive much?

Brad can post or not... it's nothing to me. I'm just posting a public comment on a public blog. *shrug*


My response to these accusations is in my last post, which prove her accusations completely false.

Furthermore, Brad feels Melissa is way off base and he agrees with me. Here is his comment:
Hi Victoria,

Thanks for letting me know of Melissa's comments. Her and others don't know all the truth. Limited information with limited understanding leads to that type of thing. Let us forgive them.

As for me addressing that, I concur with what you have written. I do not wish to add anything else.

To any who read this blog, realize it is a snippet and not a point by point accounting. Blogs generally will be areas that people pour out their hearts. It is not a place to wholly judge them as a person. Would you want to be judged by what you write or have written without being able to add necessary information? Be slow to judge and quick to hear.

To really know someone you must care for them and constrain judgments.
Friends are not won and kept only by kindness, but, also mercy. Without forgiveness for wrongs no friendship would last past the wow phase. Work within the Law of Kindness. We all fail each other, even ourselves. We all fail God. We can't avoid failure, but we can by the will and grace of God overcome it. Jesus said, "I have overcome the world"!

If you do not believe in God, this dark existence is harder and more difficult to get through. For, you'll have no understanding of why you do "wrong" things, or what "are" the wrong things. No light. Your life may appear magical, wonderful, bright and glorious, but that has cost.

Gospel of John 1:10-14
The Christ-Messiah, proclaimed by God in the Prophets of the Old Jewish Testament; Jesus of Nazareth is God. The Cross proves it and His life. If you reject Him, you reject life. He is life and His way. IF you have not Jesus you are existing not living. For no one lives apart from Him. Praised be His name. As it is written:

TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL YOUR HEART, LEAN NOT TO YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING, IN ALL YOUR WAYS ACKNOWLEDGE HIM AND HE WILL DIRECT YOUR PATH.

Peace to You and Yours. Read Genesis.


There is all is. Judge for yourself whether Melissa is right or if she has been slow to hear and quick to judge.

Thursday, August 07, 2008

A response to my critics

Calories eaten yesterday: 1344
Fat: 26g (18%)
Carbs: 94g (28%)
Protein: 179g (54%)
Weight this morning: 130.2 (One week ago: 129)
Calories burned in exercise today: 40

Dear Critics,

I feel I need to respond to you today, especially a critic who finally identified herself as "Melissa." I know it won't do any good since your minds are made up, but maybe it will clear things up for other people.

This is my blog, my home. Please treat me like you would if you were face to face with me in my own home. If you don't like what you read here, no one is forcing you to read. Moreover, why do you even care?

My Dad does not support me; neither does Brad. Brad has an ex-wife and son to support; he can not support me, nor would I ask him to. Dad helps me out due to my being on medication and not having health insurance. I have "health assistance," but I still have to pay a great deal of medical bills out of pocket and then wait for partial reimbursement.

Dad gives me $200 a month, which doesn't go far in this area. He also helps out my sister, who's married with a child. He helped her buy a condo, which she now rents out and makes money from. She and her husband both work full time, but I guess she's also a "whiny brat" because she accepts the gifts. I own a piece of property which was gifted to me and receive about $200 a month from that. Dear critics, do you turn down gifts offered to you? If not, then please shut up.

I work full time at a radio network. Full time, as in 40 hours a week. No one supports me. I pay my own rent and buy my own food. I pay for my cats' vet bills and kibble. Brad helped me out once to buy basic groceries and it wasn't because I was broke from buying diet pills, lol. That kind of thinking is downright insane. Food and rent always take precedence over pills (unless it's my medication!).

Brad at Lafayette ReservoirBrad doesn't have to go out of his way for me. We work the same job in the same department at the same desk. He works mornings and I work evenings. He is a member of the same church I go to. It's no extra gas to take me with him to church, especially since he usually crashes out at my apartment the night before. I am his best friend and hiking partner. Not too many women love taking long walks/hikes, but I do. We do a lot of things together.

Weekend plans with Brad:
Doctor appointment Friday morning. We both want coffee so we'll hit Starbucks. I also want to grab a breakfast sandwich there. Afterward Brad will drop me off at the Red Cross and head back to work. I'll take the bus home and after he gets off we'll go walking, probably at Chabot since he seems to like it there and I like the change of scenery from our usual. After giving blood I am usually a bit weak, so it will have to be a shorter walk of about an hour instead of the two hours we both like to do.

Friday night Brad will probably spend the night since it's just easier for him and I don't mind since he doesn't really snore. ;) Saturday morning I am cooking breakfast for us (all from food I bought with my money, dear critics). I think I'll make french toast this week since I can make it low-carb (low-carb bread, egg whites, sugar-free soy milk, sugar-free syrup). I love the way Brad cooks grits (I also paid for the grits, dear critics), but I just can't have the carbs right now.

Saturday we'll go to church and after that I don't know. I'm hoping for an afternoon walk and a nice relaxing evening at home; I bet Brad wants to same. He'll probably spend the night and if he does I'll feed him breakfast (once again with food I paid for, dear critics) and get a ride to the gym.

Hmmm...seems to me that I pay for an awful lot of the food he eats, yet it's wrong for him to buy a few groceries for me once? How do you figure that? It seems like a give and take relationship to me, not just me taking taking taking. How does sharing food expenses (food that we both eat) translate to him supporting me? Can you please explain that?

I do not feel that asking him to replace a jacket that he lost is "nickel and diming." Maybe to you it is, but neither of us is rich. Asking him to pay me back for drinking one of my beers ($1-$2) would be nickel and diming. A $30 jacket is not, and he feels the same way. He acknowledges that he lost it while it was in his possession and that he should replace it. If I lost something of his I would feel responsible for replacing it. He read my blog entry and doesn't feel I "lambasted" him. I think he would be the better judge of "lambasting" than some stranger who doesn't know either of us. Hmmm?

What I find creepy is people who think they know enough about our relationship to comment on it simply from reading a few blog entries. You think you are enough of an expert to call me names (claiming I am a "whiny brat" and "paranoid" count as name calling) and claim that Brad is "catering to your (my) every whim." By the way, dear critics, when I told him that he outright laughed. It's so far from the truth that he found it funny.

Sincerely,
The "paranoid, whiny brat"

Okay, enough about that. Critics don't deserve the space I just gave them.

No exercise today other than the 30 minute round trip walk to/from the laundromat. I decided to be lazy and take the bus to work from the train station, stopping for the basic groceries I need for next week - cottage cheese, salad, and veggies. The zucchini wasn't on sale anymore, so I got the bagged broccoli and cauliflower.

Now that my test results are back I'm hoping the doctor can give me a prescription for thyroid medication. It's very clear there is a problem. In fact, I found my TSH numbers from a very basic thyroid test another doctor ran on me a few years ago. It was 3.87 then. She said it was fine (as did another doctor who looked over the test) but now that I know more I know I should have been treated then. I am 4.07 now so the problem has only gotten worse.

I'm also going to discuss the ferritin issue with the doc. I've read that I can buy iron pills over the counter and that they are cheap. The thyroid forums says levels should be in the 70-90 range, but I pulled out Drs. Michael and Mary Eades' book last night and that says that 50 is good. Considering that I am at 23 and feeling tired all the time, a supplement is probably a good idea, especially since I give blood every two months.

A little more on my glucose tolerance test. I had a two hour test done a couple of years ago. They took my fasting level (which was about 68 or 69), gave me 75g of dextrose, and tested me two hours later. Two hours later I was somewhere around 88 if I recall. So I don't know why I went hypo on this test. The main difference is that this test was 100g and the last was 75g. I'd had a glass of wine 11 hours before. Could that effect it even 11 hours later? I'm still waiting on the insulin levels for this most recent test. Hopefully the doctor will have them when I see him tomorrow. As soon as I have the insulin levels I'll post a follow-up video on YouTube with all the readings.

Ok, I'll be back on Sunday with my weigh-in!

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Wednesday, August 06, 2008

Thyriod, Vitamins, & Glucose Tolerance Test results

Calories eaten yesterday: 1237
Fat: 24g (17%)
Carbs: 95g (30%)
Protein: 163g (52%)
Weight this morning: 132.2 (One week ago: 130.2)
Calories burned in exercise today: 419

Ok, I had some further tests run after some of my initial thyroid tests came back funky. Here's the full rundown. I'm definitely hypothyroid, but don't understand all the numbers.

T-4 Total: 5.3. The range is 4.5-12.5. In range.

T-3 Uptake: 35.5. The range is 22-35. OUT of range, high.

Free T3: 149. The NEW reference range is 230-420. OUT of range, low. WAY out of range.
I'm thinking this may be the key right here.

Free Thyroxine Index: 1.9. The range is 1.4-3.8. In range, but low.
Thyroxine-Free (Free T4): 0.9...range is 0.8-1.8. In range, but low.

TSH...4.07...range is 0.4-4.5. In range. This is the old range. In the new range I can't be above 3.0 and would be OUT of range, high.

Thyoid antibodies:
Peroxidose Ab
TPO...<10...the range is <35
Thyroglobulin Abs...<20...the range is <20.

So if I am reading this right I don't have any thyroid antibodies?

Chemistry
Vitamin B12...1787...the range is 200-1100, so I am out of range, but high.
Vitamin D, 1-25-dihydroxy...56...range is 15-60
Vitamin D 25, total...39...range is 20-100
Vitamin D 25, D3...39...no range given
Vitamin D 25, D2...<4...no range given
Ferritin...23...range is 10-154 (from what I hear, ferritin should be closer to 70)

So my vitamins look okay? I do take a supplement with B-12 in it and spend a lot of time outside without sunscreen for vitamin D.

I got my 5 hour glucose tolerance tests back also. The insulin results are still pending but I had some hypoglycemia going on during hours 2 and 3. Hours 4 and 5 my blood sugar started to come back up again.
Fasting glucose: 70
Then I drank 100g of dextrose.
Hour 1: 46
Hour 2: 39
Hour 3: 30
Hour 4: 66 (coming back up again)
Hour 5: 72

So some hypoglycemia and then in hour 4 my liver kicked in and did what it should to get my blood sugar back up. But it does explain why I felt so crappy halfway through the test.

Exercise today was one hour or upper body work, mostly arms, shoulders, and lats. Then I ran 31 minutes on the treadmill (3 miles), and finally walked to work from the train stations, about 30 minutes, 1.5 miles.

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Tuesday, August 05, 2008

"S" is for Stress

Calories eaten yesterday: 1381
Fat: 29g (19%)
Carbs: 102g (29%)
Protein: 183g (52%)
Weight this morning: 135.8 (One week ago: 130.6)
Calories burned in exercise today: 81

Crud. I'm up a half pound from yesterday and almost 5 pounds over this time last week. I was raging hungry yesterday, but only gave in to a couple extra "naughty nibbles." I really do have a non-existent metabolism. :(

Still waiting on all the tests. *sigh* I can see that I won't be getting the results of anything before I see the doctor meaning I will have no clue what is going on since he just zips through everything and I like to research. I'm pissed about that and everything else.

My friend lost my jeans jacket and I had to buy another even though I'm broke and he can't pay me back until the "next paycheck" (which never comes). Oh...the jacket had an irreplaceable, hand-painted, one-of-only-a-few-made pin. I got it at General Conference a couple years ago. It can't be bought or in any other way replaced. I loved that pin and now that's gone, too, stolen, never to be seen again because Brad left it at the damn restaurant! :(

I have a birthday (sister), anniversary (sister and her husband), and wedding shower (my pastor's daughter) to also buy gifts (or gift cards) for with my non-existent money. I swear to God that anniversaries and showers (especially showers!) are just a time for people to say "We have money and you have none, but we want you to give us stuff." That pisses me off, too. All these people have far more than me. Right now I don't even have a way to buy basic groceries so I can eat next week!

Then there's the fun with my gym membership, the ongoing stress with my cats, and the list goes on.

Oh yeah...I forgot the mention the final stress. This would normally be the week of my vacation (my one week a year to get away). But due to lack of funds and the higher costs I don't get a vacation this year. So right now I'm stuck here at work under a ton of stress instead of at my church's General Conference where I want to be. :( :( :(

Oh...I missed my bus last night. The driver saw me and drove away anyway. I was running and yelling and two other people were waving and yelling. I know it won't do any good, but I called in the complaint today. I broke down in tears after missing the bus. It was 11:15 pm for crying out loud! I just can't take it! If I weren't on medication I would probably be suicidal about now.

Ran into the City today to get my mail. Helena's check was there, but not the one from the property. That's going to make money really tight. I needed the property check to cover my debts and give money to my sister (birthday), her husband (anniversary), and the two lovebirds for their wedding shower. The money from Helena (my security deposit) is already spoken for. I intend to withdraw the money and set it aside as soon as the check clears.

My only exercise was walking the 1.5 miles from the train station to work.

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Monday, August 04, 2008

Dropping my health club membership

Calories eaten yesterday: 1171
Fat: 28g (21%)
Carbs: 83g (28%)
Protein: 152g (51%)
Weight this morning: 135.4 (One week ago: 135.6)
Calories burned in exercise today: 323

I forgot to write this yesterday: I dropped my health club membership yesterday. No, I'm not quitting. ;) I want to get a pre-paid membership, but those are only available for new members. So I have to drop my membership, wait for the last month to run out (I paid first and last when I signed up), and then rejoin with the pre-paid membership. I'll use the money Helena owes me from my security deposit and set it aside for this. Hopefully I won't have to miss any workouts.

Today was leg day. I did one hour of mostly leg work with a teeny bit of core. For cardio I set the treadmill at a 15% grade and just walked, mostly at 2.5 mph. I finally ended with walking to work from BART.

One thing I bought last weekend was an OTC thyroid supplement. I started taking it yesterday. Hopefully it can help a little and more hopefully I can get some thyroid medication from the doctor to help me.

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Sunday, August 03, 2008

Week 72 Weigh-In

Start: 154
Week 1: 150 (-4) - Week 2: 148.6 (-1.4)
Week 3: 146 (-2.6) - Week 4: 147.2 (+1.2)
Week 5: 145.6 (-1.6) - Week 6: 144 (-1.6)
Week 7: 143 (-1) - Week 8: 142.8 (-0.2)
Week 9: 143.6 (+0.8) - Week 10: 141.2 (-2.4)
Week 11: 143.8 (+2.6) - Week 12: 142.4 (-1.4)
Week 13: 142.4 (-0) - Week 14: 141.6 (-0.8)
Week 15: 139.4 (-2.2) - Week 16: 140 (+0.6)
Week 17: 139.2 (-0.8) - Week 18: 139 (-0.2)
Week 19: 138 (-1) - Week 20: 135.4 (-2.6)
Week 21: 137.2 (+1.8) - Week 22: 139.6 (+2.4)
Week 23: 143.2 (+3.6) - Week 24: 143.6 (+0.4)
Week 25: 137.6 (-6) - Week 26: 139.6 (+2)
Week 27: 142 (+2.4) - Week 28: 137.2 (-4.8)
Week 29: 137 (-0.2) - Week 30: 136.8 (-0.2)
Week 31: 142.2 (+5.4) - Week 32: 136.8 (-5.4)
Week 33: 137.8 (+1) - Week 34: 135.8 (-2)
Week 35: 137.6 (+1.8) - Week 36: 143.8 (+6.2)
Week 37: 142.8 (-1) - Week 38: 140 (-2.8)
Week 39: 142.4 (+2.4) - Week 40: 140.4 (-2)
Week 41: 139.6 (-0.8) - Week 42: 142 (+2.4)
Week 43: N/A - Week 44: 141 (-1)
Week 45: 138.8 (-2.2) - Week 46: 139.6 (+0.8)
Week 47: 133.6 (-6) - Week 48: 132.4 (-1.2)
Week 49: 138.6 (+6.2) - Week 50: 138.4 (-0.2)
Week 51: 138.8 (+0.4) - Week 52: 139.4 (+0.6)
Week 53: 137.8 (-1.6) - Week 54: 139.4 (+1.6)
Week 55: 137.6 (-1.8) - Week 56: 136.4 (-1.2)
Week 57: 136.6 (+0.2) - Week 58: 139.4 (+2.8)
Week 59: 136.6 (-2.8) - Week 60: 134.6 (-2)
Week 61: 137 (+2.4) - Week 62: 138.6 (+1.6)
Week 63: 137 (-1.6) - Week 64: 137 (-0)
Week 65: 141.8 (+4.8) - Week 66: 135.4 (-6.4)
Week 67: 136 (+0.6) - Week 68: 139.2 (+3.2)
Week 69: 137.2 (-2) - Week 70: 138.2 (+1)
Week 71: 136.4 (-1.8) - Week 72: 140 (+3.6)
Total loss: -14

Body fat on Tanita scale:
Year start: 26.6%
Last month: 24.4%
This month: 24.9%

Ok, now to catch up on other numbers.

Calories eaten Thursday: 1508
Fat: 17g (10%)
Carbs: 182g (49%)
Protein: 121g (32%)
Weight Thursday morning: 129 (One week ago: 133.2)
Calories burned in exercise Thursday: 70

Had my glucose tolerance test today so I wasn't on plan.
Weight Friday morning: 129 (One week ago: 129.4)
Calories burned in exercise Friday: 0

Weight Saturday morning: 134.4 (One week ago: 138)
Calories burned in exercise Saturday: 201

Calories burned in exercise today: 423

I feel so fat and bloated. I know I gained a ton of real fat this weekend. I way overdid the food for two days in a row - Friday after my glucose tolerance test and my regular Saturday cheat day. I ate all day long and I wasn't even hungry. I know that if I eat when I'm not hungry my body stores that food as fat. So I am afraid that most of my 3.6 pound gain is real fast that will take a long time to lose. :(

The glucose tolerance test went okay on Friday. They took the first draw about 11 a.m. and gave me the drink. They tested me every hour until 4 p.m. and then I could finally eat. I had a packet of cookies (6 Oreos of which I ate 4), two Mochatinis, half of an Espresso bar at Starbucks, a package of Hostess cupcakes, and a Snickers bar. Also the chicken super burrito I had been planning on. Here's the video of my GTT.

My eating on Saturday was a little better, but only a little, and my main problem was continually eating even though I wasn't hungry. I also had a pitcher of low-carb pina coladas to drink instead of wine. At least they weren't the real kind!

Friday UPS made a second attempt to deliver my DSL kit. The lady in Apt. E took the delivery so I finally got it! Brad didn't want to deal with it right then but I did, so we got it hooked up and configured and everything. The directions they gave were very poor and we somehow got it online in a completely different way than they said. At any rate, I now have DSL! I was able to get up the videos of my glucose tolerance test on YouTube, and do my diet update from home this morning! :)

Saturday after church we did some shopping that needed done and then did a couple of walks in the Lake Chabot area.

Today I hit the gym and got in an hour of arm/shoulder/back weight training, and 30 minutes running on the treadmill. I also did the walk to work from the train. But I forgot my pedometer so I have to go now and try to estimate my steps. :-p

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