She just can't. I'm not ready to deal with this. My Dad is supposed to go first, but now my friend has cancer and the most serious depressive episode ever and even she doesn't think she will make it.
I can't deal with this, God, I just can't. I've never grown so close to someone who didn't know you and I am afraid for her, and for how I will deal with knowing. Oh, Father, why? [weeps]