A little more detail about today. I was really tired last night. I accidentally reset my clock while trying to set the alarm, so I ended up getting up at 7 a.m. Saturday morning instead of 8. Bleh. Anyway, I went to bed really early on Saturday night and slept a good 10-11 hours. I feel much better today. I forced Xena to sleep on my bed and instead of sleeping at the bottom of the bed or in her box on the bed, she curled up right next to me, so close that it was hard to turn over. :)
Got up at 9, so I could have extra time at the gym. I went to the Bayfair 24 Hour Fitness that has the lap pool. I did 20 minutes on the pedal stairmaster. I still had some spare time so I did 10 minutes on the treadmill at 3.5 mph (a nice fast walking pace, but not too fast). Gotta burn those calories from the ice cream yesterday. I sweated so much.
Then I stripped off my workout clothes and my swimsuit was beneath. I went into the pool. Swam around for about 25 minutes, then got in the whirlpool for 10 minutes, then back to the pool for another 10 minutes. I was only going to do 30 total, but I went for 35 because, again, I need to burn the calories from the ice cream. By this point I could feel myself getting tired. The whole thing is more cardio than I am used to. Back in the whirlpool for another 10 minutes, then step on the scale in the women's dressing room, then strip down and get dressed in my civilian clothes. ;) I had an Atkins shake for the protein content while I walked back to the BART station.
A great day at the gym. I love swimming, even if it's boring lap swimming, and then I get to end the workout with the whirlpool. :) I can't swim, but I can dog paddle and float on my back and the pool is so shallow I can walk from end to end.
Sunday, February 27, 2005
Monday, February 21, 2005
I *get* it now! (Lewis and Tolkein)
Been reading "That Hideous Strength" lately. Due to an intense "read through the Bible in a year program," I still haven't finished the book. I don't allow myself to read the book unless my Bible reading for the day is done.
Anyway, Lewis talks a bit about Numinor, the "true west," and Middle Earth in the book. While I was reading yesterday it suddenly hit me where Middle Earth is. I always thought it was a fictional place, but in "Lord of the Rings" Tolkein was providing a history of OUR PLANET! We are Middle Earth. Above is the heavens, and below is hell, and we are in between, caught, in a sense, between the worlds.
I read the entire Lord of the Rings book (all 1006 pages) and never understood that. I read something totally unrelated and it hits me! :)
Anyway, Lewis talks a bit about Numinor, the "true west," and Middle Earth in the book. While I was reading yesterday it suddenly hit me where Middle Earth is. I always thought it was a fictional place, but in "Lord of the Rings" Tolkein was providing a history of OUR PLANET! We are Middle Earth. Above is the heavens, and below is hell, and we are in between, caught, in a sense, between the worlds.
I read the entire Lord of the Rings book (all 1006 pages) and never understood that. I read something totally unrelated and it hits me! :)
Carb overdose
Oh God. I didn't realize how bad carbs are until I ODed tonight. I can hardly keep my eyes open and I still have an hour left at work. I'm so tired. This sucks. I look forward to getting my energy back tomorrow as I detox. Bleh. Oh God, bleh. I feel awful. *yawn*
This, boys and girls, is why we're doing Atkins. In a word - energy. Did I really feel like this before starting Atkins? I can't fathom it. I hate this feeling.
This, boys and girls, is why we're doing Atkins. In a word - energy. Did I really feel like this before starting Atkins? I can't fathom it. I hate this feeling.
Fell off the wagon (again)
Well, I fell off the wagon again. I just couldn't take another day being good. Both Hegenbergers and the burrito place were closed, so I ordered pizza at work. It took two hours and several phone calls before they delivered a luke warm pizza. I was so not amused.
Of course, extra carbs make me thirsty (and make my body hold onto that water), so I'll be bloated up like a balloon tomorrow. Fun fun - NOT!
Took Xena to the vet today to get her claws clipped. She's been scratching me a lot and when that happens I know it's time to blunt those suckers.
Since I had to drop Xena off before heading to work, and there was a Safeway nearby, I stopped in and bought a bunch of low carb ice cream. I hope I got it home without it melting too bad, but the busses were on a holiday schedule and it took forever to get home, drop off Xena and the ice cream, and rush off to work. It was on and off pouring rain through all this.
Writing from bloatsville,
Victoria
:(
Of course, extra carbs make me thirsty (and make my body hold onto that water), so I'll be bloated up like a balloon tomorrow. Fun fun - NOT!
Took Xena to the vet today to get her claws clipped. She's been scratching me a lot and when that happens I know it's time to blunt those suckers.
Since I had to drop Xena off before heading to work, and there was a Safeway nearby, I stopped in and bought a bunch of low carb ice cream. I hope I got it home without it melting too bad, but the busses were on a holiday schedule and it took forever to get home, drop off Xena and the ice cream, and rush off to work. It was on and off pouring rain through all this.
Writing from bloatsville,
Victoria
:(
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Anniversary of working out
I figured what better way to celebrate the anniversary of beginning to exercise than by exercising (2/19/04)! So I jumped on my really old, rusted stationary bike at home. Everything was going find until about 15 minutes in it started making so much noise I couldn't hear the TV, and I was trying to catch up on some stuff I taped. So I hopped off and just jogged in place and from one end of the apartment to the other for another 15 minutes. I'd intended to bike for a half hour so I figured that would make up for it.
My orange tabby, Abby, the feral one, was perched at the top of the cat tree looking at me real weird. lol They freak out any time I act different from normal. They've gotten used to the bike, but I rarely run in place for exercise.
My orange tabby, Abby, the feral one, was perched at the top of the cat tree looking at me real weird. lol They freak out any time I act different from normal. They've gotten used to the bike, but I rarely run in place for exercise.
Speaking at church (end of March), take 2
Talked to pastor about how it was scheduled for Easter weekend and did he want to change that? I told him it didn't really matter to me, that if he had something special planned that Sabbath that I would totally understand. In the end he decided to take that weekend and bump me up to the weekend previous - the Saturday before Palm Sunday.
I get to pick the songs but it was suggested that along with "All Glory, Laud, and Honor" - a typical Palm Sunday song - that I also include some Good Friday songs, since by the next service we'll already be past Good Friday. So I get to pick the songs, but due to Palm Sunday and Easter week, I pretty much need to pick those type songs.
This is the only time during the year when going to a Sabbath keeping church feels weird. All the church festivals are always on Sunday and so we're always a day ahead, or in the case of Good Friday, a day behind. Sabbath worship on Easter weekend always feels weird to me. We usually do one or two Good Friday songs, and a couple Easter Sunday songs. It's just feels so schizophrenic to me somehow. It's also the one time during the year when I am sure to attend Sunday services, for Palm and Easter Sunday, as well as Good Friday as I have that day off work.
I get to pick the songs but it was suggested that along with "All Glory, Laud, and Honor" - a typical Palm Sunday song - that I also include some Good Friday songs, since by the next service we'll already be past Good Friday. So I get to pick the songs, but due to Palm Sunday and Easter week, I pretty much need to pick those type songs.
This is the only time during the year when going to a Sabbath keeping church feels weird. All the church festivals are always on Sunday and so we're always a day ahead, or in the case of Good Friday, a day behind. Sabbath worship on Easter weekend always feels weird to me. We usually do one or two Good Friday songs, and a couple Easter Sunday songs. It's just feels so schizophrenic to me somehow. It's also the one time during the year when I am sure to attend Sunday services, for Palm and Easter Sunday, as well as Good Friday as I have that day off work.
San Leandro 24 Hour Fitness, take 2
Went swimming at the San Leandro 24 Hour Fitness this morning. Just boring lap swimming, but I liked the tight feeling of the swimsuit on my body and the feeling of the water on my arms and legs. Did that for about a half hour total.
Weighed myself before going in the pool in my shower shoes and my bathing suit (less clothes than I usually wear to weigh). I came out to about 160, so I haven't really gained from indulging the last 3 days! :) Maybe a teeny bit, but only a teeny difference. I'm back on the wagon today and keeping a closer eye on my calories.
As weird as it sounds, I can't wait for TOM so I can break this 160 mark and get into the 150s.
Weighed myself before going in the pool in my shower shoes and my bathing suit (less clothes than I usually wear to weigh). I came out to about 160, so I haven't really gained from indulging the last 3 days! :) Maybe a teeny bit, but only a teeny difference. I'm back on the wagon today and keeping a closer eye on my calories.
As weird as it sounds, I can't wait for TOM so I can break this 160 mark and get into the 150s.
Saturday, February 19, 2005
One Year Ago Today
One year ago yesterday I decided I weighed too much and signed up at Curves. One year ago today I did my first workout. :) One year ago today I began to change my life. One year ago today I started to do something about my weight. I didn't begin Atkins until later. This is just the anniversary of beginning to excercise.
Yea me!
Yea me!
Friday, February 18, 2005
"Psalm"
Today I met Psalm (Sarah) from the Depression forum where I used to hang out before the betrayal. Anyway, I met Psalm in the chat room and a couple of weeks ago she contacted me to say that her and her husband would be here and would I like to meet her? Of course I jumped at the chance. They met me in the lobby, and we went to Starbucks, then walked down to and through Chinatown for some light shopping. Then back to the hotel and her husband Richard went up to the room while Sarah and I sat in one of the restaurants and talked alone. Then she had to get ready for dinner so we parted. Sarah and I have stuff in common. I hope we can maintain contact after she gets back home, and I hope her husband comes around and realizes his infidelity is HIS fault, and his alone, and he needs to stop. I pray strength for Psalm to endure the emotional roller coaster she is now on. God bless you, Sarah.
Overate
Overate today. It was the low carb Carl's Jr. burger. I would have been pretty close to my calorie allotment if I had skipped it. But I was having such a good time, I thought a burger and book would only make it better. :) Only 4 net carbs, but way too many calories. And yesterday I ate 2300. God, I am such a failure. :(
This is sooo going to make me gain. :(
This is sooo going to make me gain. :(
Thursday, February 17, 2005
Won't be able to count
I just remembered I may not be able to count tomorrow. I have a meal plan done, but I am meeting someone I met online tomorrow. Her and her hubby are staying in San Francisco, and I'm going to meet them at their hotel tomorrow afternoon. If we have any more than coffee, I won't have any way of counting it.
I have an outstanding dinner planned if I don't eat out with them: Dreamfield's pasta, marinara sauce, and mixed with peas and Louis Rich Southwestern chicken. Mix all ingredients and serve on a big plate, lol.
I guess I can always have it Saturday night instead. I do hope I'm home in time for Joan of Arcadia.
I have an outstanding dinner planned if I don't eat out with them: Dreamfield's pasta, marinara sauce, and mixed with peas and Louis Rich Southwestern chicken. Mix all ingredients and serve on a big plate, lol.
I guess I can always have it Saturday night instead. I do hope I'm home in time for Joan of Arcadia.
I usually work out three times a week. This week I went 4, but didn't push myself very hard yesterday or today, so I figure 2 half workouts make a whole. ;)
Today I did 40 minutes of light cardio, twice as much as usual, and only a couple of weights.
Then I took BART to work and was early, so I went to Carrow's (similar to Denny's) and ordered a diet Coke and read my book at the counter. But the wine list looked good so I got a glass of white wine to drink with my book, and then I went to work feeling better than usual, lol!
Today I did 40 minutes of light cardio, twice as much as usual, and only a couple of weights.
Then I took BART to work and was early, so I went to Carrow's (similar to Denny's) and ordered a diet Coke and read my book at the counter. But the wine list looked good so I got a glass of white wine to drink with my book, and then I went to work feeling better than usual, lol!
160!
Woohoo! I got on the scale today and hit a new low - 160 even! 1 more pound to be in a "healthy" weight range! :) Dowell saw me step on the scale and said "It won't be any different than yesterday," but it always is, sometimes up and sometimes down. I was down 0.75 of a pound, putting me at a new low - in the middle of the month! Woohoo! I am flying high!
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
On track
Well, restricting carbs for the last 3 days did the trick. I'm back down to 160.75 today. That was my post-period low this month, so look out when next month comes!
My body fat is 28.2% - slowly dropping. I hope to update my measurements on my Web site soon, maybe tonight.
Ate a banana today. So unfulfilling for the carbs involved. For the same number of carbs I can have a good sized apple, and it's crunchy and takes longer to eat.
My body fat is 28.2% - slowly dropping. I hope to update my measurements on my Web site soon, maybe tonight.
Ate a banana today. So unfulfilling for the carbs involved. For the same number of carbs I can have a good sized apple, and it's crunchy and takes longer to eat.
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Doing better
Doing pretty good after the disaster Friday/Saturday was. Sunday I ate 1862 calories and 36 carbs. 100g of fat. Monday I ate 1869 calories and 41 carbs (that includes two glasses of wine). 79g of fat. I'm on target so far today, but I just got up. ;) Hopefully tomorrow I can start adding low carb sweets back in again. My tentative menu today has 45 carbs.
By the way, those low carb Campbell's soups are good. :)
By the way, those low carb Campbell's soups are good. :)
Sunday, February 13, 2005
Speaking at church (end of March)
As many of you are aware, our pastor takes one Sabbath a month off because it's...well, he doesn't want to burn out seeing as he works 40 hours a week for a Japanese firm as a technical writer to support his family. So anyway, he get one Sabbath off, usually the last one. It's a struggle every month to pull off a service when you depend on your pastor so heavily.
Anyway, a while back someone said I should give my testimony to the church, so I offered to be the speaker for the end of March. Many of the people in the church have heard the short version, but besides some of the older kids and their Sabbath School teacher, no one has heard the long version. I also gave a short version at Conference a few years ago.
The long version ran about 23 minutes when I first gave it years ago to the woman's ministry at my old church, and I still have all my notes. here's hoping it goes well.
Oh...I checked my calendar and that Sabbath is Holy Saturday, Easter weekend.
Anyway, a while back someone said I should give my testimony to the church, so I offered to be the speaker for the end of March. Many of the people in the church have heard the short version, but besides some of the older kids and their Sabbath School teacher, no one has heard the long version. I also gave a short version at Conference a few years ago.
The long version ran about 23 minutes when I first gave it years ago to the woman's ministry at my old church, and I still have all my notes. here's hoping it goes well.
Oh...I checked my calendar and that Sabbath is Holy Saturday, Easter weekend.
San Leandro 24 Hour Fitness
Went swimming at the San Leandro 24 Hour Fitness. They have a small lap pool, but it was just nice to wear my new suit and get in the water. I was in and out of the pool a few times, but I think the total time in came to around 40 minutes.
This facility is bigger with more machines (of all kinds), but I like my home club. At least I know where everything is. But hey - now I can go swimming anytime I want! :) I rinsed off afterward, but I still smell like chlorine.
Bought a bunch of cool low carb foods at Target. It's so close to the BART station. I could go shopping there anytime I want. I join 24 Hour and my world starts getting larger. :) Anyway, I even found sugar free Almond Roca! Finally! I kept looking at the boxes hoping against hope they'd come out with one.
This facility is bigger with more machines (of all kinds), but I like my home club. At least I know where everything is. But hey - now I can go swimming anytime I want! :) I rinsed off afterward, but I still smell like chlorine.
Bought a bunch of cool low carb foods at Target. It's so close to the BART station. I could go shopping there anytime I want. I join 24 Hour and my world starts getting larger. :) Anyway, I even found sugar free Almond Roca! Finally! I kept looking at the boxes hoping against hope they'd come out with one.
San Leandro 24 Hour Fitness
Went swimming at the San Leandro 24 Hour Fitness. They have a small lap pool, but it was just nice to wear my new suit and get in the water. I was in and out of the pool a few times, but I think the total time in came to around 40 minutes.
This facility is bigger with more machines (of all kinds), but I like my home club. At least I know where everything is. But hey - now I can go swimming anytime I want! :) I rinsed off afterward, but I still smell like chlorine.
Bought a bunch of cool low carb foods at Target. It's so close to the BART station. I could go shopping there anytime I want. I join 24 Hour and my world starts getting larger. :) Anyway, I even found sugar free Almond Roca! Finally! I kept looking at the boxes hoping against hope they'd come out with one.
This facility is bigger with more machines (of all kinds), but I like my home club. At least I know where everything is. But hey - now I can go swimming anytime I want! :) I rinsed off afterward, but I still smell like chlorine.
Bought a bunch of cool low carb foods at Target. It's so close to the BART station. I could go shopping there anytime I want. I join 24 Hour and my world starts getting larger. :) Anyway, I even found sugar free Almond Roca! Finally! I kept looking at the boxes hoping against hope they'd come out with one.
Saturday, February 12, 2005
Bad eating weekend
Did terrible this weekend. After not being hungry all week, I was starving on Friday. I ate 2500 calories and 97 carbs! Ok, I can still recover Saturday and do good. Wrong! We were invited to Brent's house and I didn't think Anita (my ride to and from church) would go. I can deal with lunch since Saturday lunch always has more carbs than usual, but that's normal for Saturday lunch. However, I'm usually home for dinner and have more control. Not so today. Anita decided to go.
For snack when we arrived we had white cheddar Cheetos and apples. I was hungry and ate quite a few apple slices, and just a few Cheetos (if I *have* to eat carbs, might as well make it healthy carbs). Finally we got to dinner. They cooked spaghetti! I had some of Jane's homemade cole slaw (ok, I had a lot - it was homemade so lower in sugar), and some other kind of salad. After eating so bad for the past 36 hours my cravings were back, so I found the smallest slice of garlic bread and ate that (God, it was GOOD!). I figured I had to have some of the main course, so I broke down and had a plate of spaghetti. I put alfredo sauce on it rather than marinara (they had both) because it is lower in carbs. The spaghetti was overcooked and didn't even taste good! :(
So now my cravings are back so I've got to cut back on carbs for a few days to make them go away. I soooo wanted dessert, but I promised myself a low carb dessert when I got home. I nearly broke down though. Reading the package on the cherry cobbler helped me to stay away. Six servings per box and 50 carbs per serving!
Tomorrow I'm eating tons of meat and cheese and some veggies. My tentative menu has 42 carbs. Starting tomorrow, I'm going to try to stay away from all candy and sweets except sugar free Jello for at least a few days until I can get my cravings under control again. I learned an important lesson - 97 carbs are too much! 85-92g is doable, but on the edge of making me crave. I need to be more careful.
I'm not even going to weigh myself. I know I gained water weight from the sheer number of carbs. So I am staying away from the scale until at least Tuesday.
On a lighter note, I got myself lined up to be the speaker at church the last Sabbath in March. I'll give my story of how I became a Christian. :) Our pastor takes the last Sabbath of every month off and they need to fill the pulpit, so this is my perfect opportunity to inflict my story on everyone. ;)
Alright, off for one last fling before I put my nose to the grindstone tomorrow.
For snack when we arrived we had white cheddar Cheetos and apples. I was hungry and ate quite a few apple slices, and just a few Cheetos (if I *have* to eat carbs, might as well make it healthy carbs). Finally we got to dinner. They cooked spaghetti! I had some of Jane's homemade cole slaw (ok, I had a lot - it was homemade so lower in sugar), and some other kind of salad. After eating so bad for the past 36 hours my cravings were back, so I found the smallest slice of garlic bread and ate that (God, it was GOOD!). I figured I had to have some of the main course, so I broke down and had a plate of spaghetti. I put alfredo sauce on it rather than marinara (they had both) because it is lower in carbs. The spaghetti was overcooked and didn't even taste good! :(
So now my cravings are back so I've got to cut back on carbs for a few days to make them go away. I soooo wanted dessert, but I promised myself a low carb dessert when I got home. I nearly broke down though. Reading the package on the cherry cobbler helped me to stay away. Six servings per box and 50 carbs per serving!
Tomorrow I'm eating tons of meat and cheese and some veggies. My tentative menu has 42 carbs. Starting tomorrow, I'm going to try to stay away from all candy and sweets except sugar free Jello for at least a few days until I can get my cravings under control again. I learned an important lesson - 97 carbs are too much! 85-92g is doable, but on the edge of making me crave. I need to be more careful.
I'm not even going to weigh myself. I know I gained water weight from the sheer number of carbs. So I am staying away from the scale until at least Tuesday.
On a lighter note, I got myself lined up to be the speaker at church the last Sabbath in March. I'll give my story of how I became a Christian. :) Our pastor takes the last Sabbath of every month off and they need to fill the pulpit, so this is my perfect opportunity to inflict my story on everyone. ;)
Alright, off for one last fling before I put my nose to the grindstone tomorrow.
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