Wednesday, April 12, 2006

It sucks being fat!

At least I was able to make it to the gym today for a nice long "regular" workout - weight training and cardio. It's the best. I did 30 minutes of weights, 30 on the elliptical, and 20 walking with the treadmill set to a 15% grade. FitDay says 332 calories.

Last night I realized how sore my abs were from the 100 sit-ups I did Monday. They were still sore today but I used the ab bench to do some crunches anyway, painful though they were.

I didn't weigh myself this morning; I knew the news would still be depressing. I really need to keep my calories under control. Yesterday I did good. When 7 p.m. rolled around I wasn't hungry, and when 8 rolled around I wasn't hungry. At 9 I was hungry and had both my 8 and 9 o'clock snacks (sandwich on low carb bread, and strawberries). Totals for yesterday: about 1800 calories, and 54g net carbs. Not bad.

I bought new jeans at Old Navy yesterday. All they had was low waist and ultra low waist. I figured just the regular low waist was the least offensive of the two. I know what size I take so I just grabbed a size 8 and didn't try them on. I'm wearing them today and they are SO tight. My belly hangs over the waistband, and because they sit on the hips instead of the waist it was hard to get them buttoned. I have to lose weight because I am NOT going back to the size 10s. I worked too hard to get here.

I'm so disgusted with myself for not being able to maintain.

And will the rain never end? It rained all last week, and is forecast to rain all this week. Perhaps it will be a repeat of last year where it kept raining right into June. :(

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2 comments:

Lira said...

*hugs*

Try to be gentle with yourself. The healthy choices you've already made are worth so much! I know we need to stay intentional about food and exercise to maintain progress already accomplished, but never at the cost of mental or physical self-abuse. I don't think you're quite doing that, but... Just take care.

Brad said...

Hmmm, I think like you and remind her to not obsess over the ebb and flow aspects of her diet.
I talk with her about the diet worries. Overdriving yourself on a diet can be an issue if you let it. She has it in balance.She is just driven,attentive and disciplined. =-) That is the goal, balance, balance , balance. All things in moderation. Even a necessary diet.
=-)
We must realize that God makes things beautiful from the inside out. His concern is spirit and Faith. Yet, we are accountable for the temple of our body.
We mustn't put the body with the desires and needs above Him.